Barren Honour: A NovelLawrence, George A. (George Alfred)
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Barren Honour: A Novel
Lawrence, George A. (George Alfred)
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"You don't expect me to be so conceited as to allow all you implicate,
Aunt Mildred? Still, I fear I cannot deny that I have found many of your
sex very charming, and that I have not always refrained from confiding
the fact to the parties most interested in hearing it. (I rather pride
myself on that circumlocution!) But, you know, I was never bound over to
keep the peace till now. I think I can give fair securities, though not
very substantial ones. Remember, I pledge all my hopes of happiness--of
happiness greater than I ever dreamt would fall in my way. I don't think
I should risk them lightly. I cannot tell _when_ I began to love Helen;
but I know that for months past the temptation has been growing stronger
which vanquished me to-day: for months past it has made me proud to
compare her with all the women I have ever admired (you say, Aunt
Mildred, their name is legion), and to feel that no one could stand the
comparison for an instant. _That_ ought to be a safeguard, surely,
against other enchantments? I can hardly fancy Helen playing Zara; yet,
if the whim should seize her, I think it would be easy to prove to her
that the part did not suit her at all. It is not my way to be prodigal
of professions; but I am certain of one thing; there is no imaginable
friendship or acquaintance--past, present, or to come--that I would not
give up to spare that child ten minutes' unhappiness; and I should not
call it a sacrifice. You are right to be distrustful when so much is at
stake; but, on my faith and honour, _I_ have no fears."
The clear dark eyes were fastened on Lady Mildred's inscrutable face
very earnestly, as if beseeching that at least truth might be answered
by truth. The trained glance of that great diplomatist did not care to
meet the challenge; it must needs have quailed. I would not affirm that
a momentary compunction did not assail her just then, while she did
justice, in thought, to the kind, generous nature of the man she had
determined to betray. It behoves the historian to be impartial, and not
to attribute an ideal perfection even to his pet politician. The Prince
of Benevento himself might be pardoned for indulging in a brief
self-reproach, after maligning his own daughter and lying to her
accepted lover, within the same half-hour. When Lady Mildred spoke
again, her voice, always low and musical, was unusually gentle and
subdued.
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