But a few years back and his ambition would as soon have aspired to an
archduchess as to the sister of Barrington, of Barrington Hall, whose
realms of social distinction separated them; but now, fallen from their
high estate, forgotten by the world, and poor, they had come down--at
least, he thought so--to a level in which there would be no presumption
in his pretensions. Indeed, I half suspect that he thought there was
something very high-minded and generous in his intentions with regard to
them. At all events, there was a struggle of some sort in his mind which
went on from year to year undecided. Now, there are men--for the most
part old bachelors--to whom an unfinished project is a positive luxury,
who like to add, day by day, a few threads to the web of fate, but no
more. To the Major it was quite enough that “some fine day or other”--so
he phrased it--he 'd make his offer, just as he thought how, in the same
propitious weather, he 'd put a new roof on his cottage, and fill up
that quarry-hole near his gate, into which he had narrowly escaped
tumbling some half-dozen times. But thanks to his caution and
procrastination, the roof, and the project, and the quarry-hole were
exactly, or very nearly, in the same state they had been eighteen years
before.
Rumor said--as rumor will always say whatever has a tinge of ill-nature
in it--that Miss Barrington would have accepted him; vulgar report
declared that she would “jump at the offer.” Whether this be, or not,
the appropriate way of receiving a matrimonial proposal, the lady was
not called upon to display her activity. He never told his love.
It is very hard to forgive that secretary, home or foreign, who in the
day of his power and patronage could, but did not, make us easy for life
with this mission or that com-missionership. It is not easy to believe
that our uncle the bishop could not, without any undue strain upon his
conscience, have made us something, albeit a clerical error, in his
diocese, but infinitely more difficult is it to pardon him who, having
suggested dreams of wedded happiness, still stands hesitating, doubting,
and canvassing,--a timid bather, who shivers on the beach, and then puts
on his clothes again.
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