“I suppose if your sister could go up in your place, Tom, you 'd be
quite sure of your diploma?”
“It's many and many a day I wished that same,” sighed he, heavily. “If
you heard her going over the 'Subclavian,' you 'd swear she had the book
in her hand.”
Conyers could not repress a smile at this strange piece of feminine
accomplishment, but he was careful not to let Tom perceive it. Not,
indeed, that the poor fellow was in a very observant mood; Polly's
perfections, her memory, and her quickness were the themes that filled
up his mind.
“What a rare piece of luck for you to have had such a sister, Tom!”
“Don't I say it to myself?--don't I repeat the very same words every
morning when I awake? Maybe I 'll never come to any good; maybe my
father is right, and that I 'll only be a disgrace as long as I live;
but I hope one thing, at least, I 'll never be so bad that I 'll forget
Polly, and all she done for me. And I'll tell you more,” said he, with a
choking fulness in his throat; “if they turn me back at my examination,
my heart will be heavier for _her_ than for myself.”
“Come, cheer up, Tom; don't look on the gloomy side. You 'll pass, I 'm
certain, and with credit too. Here 's the thirty pounds you 'll have to
lodge--”
“It is only twenty they require. And, besides, I could n't take it; it's
my father must pay.” He stammered, and hesitated, and grew pale and then
crimson, while his lips trembled and his chest heaved and fell almost
convulsively.
“Nothing of the kind, Tom,” said Conyers, who had to subdue his own
emotion by an assumed sternness. “The plan is all my own, and I
will stand no interference with it. I mean that you should pass your
examination without your father knowing one word about it. You shall
come back to him with your diploma, or whatever it is, in your hand,
and say, 'There, sir, the men who have signed their names to that do not
think so meanly of me as you do.'”
“And he'd say, the more fools they!” said Tom, with a grim smile.
“At all events,” resumed Conyers, “I 'll have my own way. Put that
note in your pocket, and whenever you are gazetted Surgeon-Major to the
Guards, or Inspector-General of all the Hospitals in Great Britain, you
can repay me, and with interest, besides, if you like it.”
“You 've given me a good long day to be in your debt,” said Tom; and
he hurried out of the room before his overfull heart should betray his
emotion.
It is marvellous how quickly a kind action done to another reconciles a
man to himself. Doubtless conscience at such times condescends to play
the courtier, and whispers, “What a good fellow you are! and how unjust
the world is when it calls you cold and haughty and ungenial!” Not that
I would assert higher and better thoughts than these do not reward him
who, Samaritan-like, binds up the wounds of misery; but I fear me much
that few of us resist self-flattery, or those little delicate adulations
one can offer to his own heart when nobody overhears him.
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