Moreover, winter is that season in which the world lies most
vigilantly and insolently in ambush against our liberties and our
virtues, and least willingly grants us a uniform and serene
existence, an existence of seclusion and of quiet preoccupation,
and so it happens that often the city draws me to itself a second
time in one day—in the evening—when Society demands its rights.
Then, late, at midnight, the last tram deposits me far out at its
penultimate stop. Or I come jogging along on foot, long after the
last tram has returned to town—I come wandering _distrait_, tempered
with wine, smoking, having passed the bourne of natural fatigue
and wrapped in a sense of false security in relation to all things
mundane. And then it happens that the embodiment of my own
domesticity, as it were, my very retirement, comes to meet me and
salutes and welcomes me not only without reproach or touchiness,
but with extreme joy, and re-introduces me to my own fireside—all
in the shape of Bashan himself. It is pitch dark, and the river
goes by with a rushing sound as I turn into the poplar avenue. A
few steps more and I feel that I am be-capered and be-switched by
paws and tail—and have no clear idea of what is happening to me.
“Bashan?” I ask of the darkness.
And then the capering and the switching are intensified to the
utmost. They pass into something dervish- and Berserker-like,
though the silence continues. The very moment I stand still I feel
two homely and wet and muddy paws upon the lapels of my overcoat,
and there are such violent snappings and lappings close to my face,
that I bend backward, whilst I pat those lean shoulders, wet with
rain or snow.
Yes, the dear fellow has waited for me at the tram-stop, well aware
of my comings and goings and doings; he had gone forth when the
hour seemed to have arrived, and waited for me at the station—waited,
perhaps, a long and weary while in the snow or rain. And his joy
at my arrival is devoid of all resentment at my cruel faithlessness,
even though I had utterly neglected him to-day and reduced all his
hopes and expectances to naught. So I am loud in my praise of him
as I pat his shoulders and we turn towards home. I tell him that
he has acted nobly, and deliver myself of momentous promises with
regard to the day which is already under way. I assure him (that
is to say not so much him as myself) that we shall go hunting
together to-morrow without fail, no matter what the weather. Amidst
resolutions such as these, my mood of universality evaporates,
seriousness and sobriety slink back into my soul, and my fancy,
now full of the hunting-grounds and their loneliness, is seized by
apperceptions of higher, secret and wondrous obligations.
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