Short stories, English; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
When she woke again it was to look through the window and see the world
white with snow. She remembered with some pleasure that she was off
duty, had the day to herself. She wanted to be alone. Her head was a
whirl of troubled thoughts. The emotions of her dream were still in her
blood. Her arms felt vacant as though an infant had just been taken
from them. A new longing came up in her--a craving for motherhood. She
linked it to her dead lover. "Oh, Ronald!" she murmured. "If only we
had been married before you went to the war----" she left the thought
unfinished. The craving persisted, apart from his memory. She ached
for a real, living affection in this world of men and women. Strange
thoughts haunted her while she dressed.
As soon as possible she escaped from the hospital, went out upon the
moor that stretched in suave contours of dazzling white. A pale
blue sky sank into its mists. A cold wind hurried over it, whirling
up little columns of dusty, frozen snow. She walked far into its
solitudes, she hardly knew whether to escape from her thoughts or to be
alone with them.
At last she turned back. She had climbed out of a little hollow,
was descending a featureless slope when suddenly she perceived the
figure of a man, dark against the snow. He walked towards her quickly.
Simultaneous with her recognition of him was the flush of blood to
her face, a peculiar nervous thrill. It was Captain Lavering. She
half hesitated. Then she strode forward, an insidiously victorious
temptation masquerading as strong will. Why should she not pass him? It
was absurd. He might think----. She hoped that she was not blushing, or
that the keen wind which fluttered her veil would be the self-evident
excuse.
They met. He stopped, made a gesture of salute.
"Good morning, Captain Lavering." She was glad to hear her own voice,
had been afraid that she could not bring it to utterance. What
was there so troubling about this man? She avoided his eyes. "I'm
pleased to see you walking about again." The crisis was successfully
surmounted. She made as if to continue her way.
"I saw you in the distance, Sister," he said bluntly.
She did not find the commonplace remark for which she sought. He
blocked her pathway.
"I have been waiting to speak to you for a long time, Sister," he
continued, as though he knew there was no necessity for a trite
beginning. "Ever since you saved my life. You did--we won't discuss
that." She stared at him, speechless. "But I have waited until I was
sure that I was quite well again. You know what I am going to say. For
a long time you have felt what was in my mind. You must be my wife."
He was strong and real--vividly actual. She felt as she did sometimes
when her eyes opened from a dream into the solid surroundings of her
cubicle. He barred off the other world.
"No--no," she breathed, dodged past him, hurried over the snow.
He was by her side, keeping pace easily with her.
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