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He thought—though it wasn’t his business to think, the business of a
junior officer is to obey and look a credit to his regiment—that the
military science of the British army was not nearly so bright as it
ought to be, and that if big trouble came there might be considerable
scope for an inventive man who had done what he could to keep abreast
with foreign work, and a considerable weeding out of generals whose
promotion had been determined entirely by their seniority, amiability
and unruffled connubial felicity. He thought that the field artillery
would be found out—there was no good in making a fuss about it
beforehand—that no end of neglected dodges would have to be picked up
from the enemy, that the transport was feeble, and a health
service—other than surgery and ambulance—an unknown idea, but he saw no
remedy but experience. So he worked hard in secret; he worked almost as
hard as some confounded foreigner might have done; in the belief that
after the first horrid smash-up there might be a chance to do things.
Outwardly of course he was sedulously all right. But he could not quite
hide the stir in his mind. It broke out upon his surface in a chattering
activity of incompleted sentences which he tried to keep as decently
silly as he could. He had done his utmost hitherto to escape the
observation of the powers that were. His infatuation for Madeleine
Philips had at any rate distracted censorious attention from these
deeper infamies....
And now here was a crisis in his life. Through some idiotic entanglement
manifestly connected with this missing boy, he had got tarred by his
brother’s brush and was under grave suspicion for liveliness and
disrespect.
The thing might be his professional ruin. And he loved the suppressed
possibilities of his work beyond measure.
It was a thing to make him absent-minded even in the company of
Madeleine.
§ 5
Not only were the first and second strands in the composition of Captain
Douglas in conflict with all his appearances and pretensions, but they
were also in conflict with one another.
He was full of that concealed resolve to do and serve and accomplish
great things in the world. That was surely purpose enough to hide behind
an easy-going unpretending gentlemanliness. But he was also tremendously
attracted by Madeleine Philips, more particularly when she was not
there.
A beautiful woman may be the inspiration of a great career. This,
however, he was beginning to find was not the case with himself. He had
believed it at first and written as much and said as much, and said it
very variously and gracefully. But becoming more and more distinctly
clear to his intelligence was the fact that the very reverse was the
case. Miss Madeleine Philips was making it very manifest to Captain
Douglas that she herself was a career; that a lover with any other
career in view need not—as the advertisements say—apply.
And the time she took up!
The distress of being with her!
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