Then Beatrice prayed no more. Short was her time. See, there sank the
sun in glory; and there the great rollers swept along past the sullen
headland, where the undertow met wind and tide. She would think no more
of self; it was, it seemed to her, so small, this mendicant calling on
the Unseen, not for others, but for self: aid for self, well-being for
self, salvation for self—this doing of good that good might come to
self. She had made her prayer, and if she prayed again it should be for
Geoffrey, that he might prosper and be happy—that he might forgive the
trouble her love had brought into his life. That he might forget her
she could not pray. She had prayed her prayer and said her say, and it
was done with. Let her be judged as it seemed good to Those who judge!
Now she would fix her thoughts upon her love, and by its strength would
she triumph over the bitterness of death. Her eyes flashed and her
breast heaved: further out to sea, further yet—she would meet those
rollers a knot or more from the point of the headland, that no record
might remain.
Was it her wrong if she loved him? She could not help it, and she was
proud to love him. Even now, she would not undo the past. What were the
lines that Geoffrey had read to her. They haunted her mind with a
strange persistence—they took time to the beat of her falling paddle,
and would not leave her:
“Of once sown seed, who knoweth what the crop is?
Alas, my love, Love’s eyes are very blind!
What would they have us do? Sunflowers and poppies
Stoop to the wind——“[*]
[*] Oliver Madox Brown.
Yes, yes, Love’s eyes are very blind, but in their blindness there was
more light than in all other earthly things. Oh, she could not live for
him, and with him—it was denied to her—but she still could die for him,
her darling, her darling!
“Geoffrey, hear me—I die for you; accept my sacrifice, and forget me
not.” So!—she is in the rollers—how solemn they are with their hoary
heads of foam, as one by one they move down upon her.
The first! it towers high, but the canoe rides it like a cork. Look!
the day is dying on the distant land, but still his glory shines across
the sea. Presently all will be finished. Here the breeze is strong; it
tears the bonnet from her head, it unwinds the coronet of braided
locks, and her bright hair streams out behind her. Feel how the spray
stings, striking like a whip. No, not this wave, she rides that also;
she will die as she has lived—fighting to the last; and once more,
never faltering, she sets her face towards the rollers and consigns her
soul to doom.
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