As for Beatrice, she went home, still chuckling, to receive a severe
reproof from Elizabeth for her “forwardness.” But Owen Davies never
forgot the debt of gratitude he owed her. In his heart he felt
convinced that had it not been for her, he would have fled before Mrs.
Thomas and her horn-rimmed eyeglasses, to return no more. The truth of
the matter was, however, that young as was Beatrice, he fell in love
with her then and there, only to fall deeper and deeper into that drear
abyss as years went on. He never said anything about it, he scarcely
even gave a hint of his hopeless condition, though of course Beatrice
divined something of it as soon as she came to years of discretion. But
there grew up in Owen’s silent, lonely breast a great and overmastering
desire to make this grey-eyed girl his wife. He measured time by the
intervals that elapsed between his visions of her. No period in his
life was so wretched and utterly purposeless as those two years which
passed while she was at her Training College. He was a very passive
lover, as yet his gathering passion did not urge him to extremes, and
he could never make up his mind to declare it. The box was in his hand,
but he feared to throw the dice.
But he drew as near to her as he dared. Once he gave Beatrice a flower,
it was when she was seventeen, and awkwardly expressed a hope that she
would wear it for his sake. The words were not much and the flower was
not much, but there was a look about the man’s eyes, and a suppressed
passion and energy in his voice, which told their tale to the
keen-witted girl. After this he found that she avoided him, and
bitterly regretted his boldness. For Beatrice did not like him in that
way. To a girl of her curious stamp his wealth was nothing. She did not
covet wealth, she coveted independence, and had the sense to know that
marriage with such a man would not bring it. A cage is a cage, whether
the bars are of iron or gold. He bored her, she despised him for his
want of intelligence and enterprise. That a man with all this wealth
and endless opportunity should waste his life in such fashion was to
her a thing intolerable. She knew if she had half his chance, that she
would make her name ring from one end of Europe to the other. In short,
Beatrice held Owen as deeply in contempt as her sister Elizabeth,
studying him from another point of view, held him in reverence. And
putting aside any human predilections, Beatrice would never have
married a man whom she despised. She respected herself too much.
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