The peculiarity of Beauchamp was that he knew the slenderness of the
thread which was leading him, and foresaw it twisting to a coil unless
he should hold firm. His work in life was much above the love of a
woman in his estimation, so he was not deluded by passion when he
entered the château; it is doubtful whether he would not hesitatingly
have sacrificed one of the precious votes in Bevisham for the pleasure
of kissing her hand when they were on the steps. She was his first love
and only love, married, and long ago forgiven:—married; that is to say,
she especially among women was interdicted to him by the lingering
shadow of the reverential love gone by; and if the anguish of the
lover’s worse than death survived in a shudder of memory at the thought
of her not solely lost to him but possessed by another, it did but
quicken a hunger that was three parts curiosity to see how she who had
suffered this bore the change; how like or unlike she might be to the
extinct Renée; what traces she kept of the face he had known. Her tears
were startling, but tears tell of a mood, they do not tell the story of
the years; and it was that story he had such eagerness to read in one
brief revelation: an eagerness born only of the last few hours, and
broken by fears of a tarnished aspect; these again being partly hopes
of a coming disillusion that would restore him his independence and ask
him only for pity. The slavery of the love of a woman chained like
Renée was the most revolting of prospects to a man who cherished his
freedom that he might work to the end of his time. Moreover, it swung a
thunder-cloud across his holiday. He recurred to the idea of the
holiday repeatedly, and the more he did so the thinner it waned. He was
exhausting the very air and spirit of it with a mind that ran
incessantly forward and back; and when he and the lady of so much
speculation were again together, an incapacity of observation seemed to
have come over him. In reality it was the inability to reflect on his
observations. Her presence resembled those dark sunsets throwing the
spell of colour across the world; when there is no question with us of
morning or of night, but of that sole splendour only.
Owing to their arrival late at the château, covers were laid for them
in the boudoir of Madame la Marquise, where he had his hostess to
himself, and certainly the opportunity of studying her. An English Navy
List, solitary on a shelf, and laid within it an extract of a paper
announcing the return of the _Ariadne_ to port, explained the mystery
of her knowing that he was in England, as well as the correctness of
the superscription of her letter to him. “You see, I follow you,” she
said.
Beauchamp asked if she read English now.
“A little; but the paper was dispatched to me by M. Vivian Ducie, of
your embassy in Paris. He is in the valley.”
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