Beauchamp gave up rowing. As he rested on the sculls, his head was bent
and turned toward the bank. Renée perceived an over-swollen monster
gourd that had strayed from a garden adjoining the river, and hung
sliding heavily down the bank on one greenish yellow cheek, in
prolonged contemplation of its image in the mirror below. Apparently
this obese Narcissus enchained his attention.
She tapped her foot. “Are you tired of rowing, monsieur?”
“It was exactly here,” said he, “that you told me you expected your
husband’s return.”
She glanced at the gourd, bit her lip, and, colouring, said, “At what
point of the river did I request you to congratulate me on it?”
She would not have said that, if she had known the thoughts at work
within him.
He set the boat swaying from side to side, and at once the hugeous
reflection of that conceivably self-enamoured bulk quavered and
distended, and was shattered in a thousand dancing fragments, to
re-unite and recompose its maudlin air of imaged satisfaction.
She began to have a vague idea that he was indulging grotesque fancies.
Very strangely, the ridiculous thing, in the shape of an over-stretched
likeness, that she never would have seen had he indicated it directly,
became transfused from his mind to hers by his abstract, half-amused
observation of the great dancing gourd—that capering antiquity,
lumbering volatility, wandering, self-adored, gross bald Cupid, elatest
of nondescripts! Her senses imagined the impressions agitating
Beauchamp’s, and exaggerated them beyond limit; and when he amazed her
with a straight look into her eyes, and the words, “Better let it be a
youth—and live, than fall back to that!” she understood him
immediately; and, together with her old fear of his impetuosity and
downrightness, came the vivid recollection, like a bright finger
pointing upon darkness, of what foul destiny, magnified by her present
abhorrence of it, he would have saved her from in the days of Venice
and Touraine, and unto what loathly example of the hideous grotesque
she, in spite of her lover’s foresight on her behalf, had become
allied.
Face to face as they sat, she had no defence for her scarlet cheeks;
her eyes wavered.
“We will land here; the cottagers shall row the boat up,” she said.
“Somewhere—anywhere,” said Beauchamp. “But I must speak. I will tell
you now. I do not think you to blame—barely; not in my sight; though no
man living would have suffered as I should. Probably some days more and
you would have been lost. You looked for me! Trust your instinct now
I’m with you as well as when I’m absent. Have you courage? that’s the
question. You have years to live. Can you live them in this place—with
honour? and alive really?”
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