Renée had the scene from her window, like a dream given out of sleep.
She lay with both arms thrown up beneath her head on the pillow, her
eyelids wide open, and her visage set and stern. Her bosom rose and
sank regularly but heavily. The fluctuations of a night stormy for her,
hitherto unknown, had sunk her to this trance, in which she lay like a
creature flung on shore by the waves. She heard her brother’s voice and
Nevil’s, and the pacing of their feet. She saw the long shaft of
moonlight broken to zigzags of mellow lightning, and wavering back to
steadiness; dark San Giorgio, and the sheen of the Dogana’s front. But
the visible beauty belonged to a night that had shivered repose,
humiliated and wounded her, destroyed her confident happy half-infancy
of heart, and she had flown for a refuge to hard feelings. Her
predominant sentiment was anger; an anger that touched all and
enveloped none, for it was quite fictitious, though she felt it, and
suffered from it. She turned it on Nevil, as against an enemy, and
became the victim in his place. Tears for him filled in her eyes, and
ran over; she disdained to notice them, and blinked offendedly to have
her sight clear of the weakness; but these interceding tears would
flow; it was dangerous to blame him, harshly. She let them roll down,
figuring to herself with quiet simplicity of mind that her spirit was
independent of them as long as she restrained her hands from being
accomplices by brushing them away, as weeping girls do that cry for
comfort. Nevil had saved her brother’s life, and had succoured her
countrymen; he loved her, and was a hero. He should not have said he
loved her; that was wrong; and it was shameful that he should have
urged her to disobey her father. But this hero’s love of her might
plead excuses she did not know of; and if he was to be excused, he,
unhappy that he was, had a claim on her for more than tears. She wept
resentfully. Forces above her own swayed and hurried her like a
lifeless body dragged by flying wheels: they could not unnerve her
will, or rather, what it really was, her sense of submission to a
destiny. Looked at from the height of the palm-waving cherubs over the
fallen martyr in the picture, she seemed as nerveless as a dreamy girl.
The raised arms and bent elbows were an illusion of indifference. Her
shape was rigid from hands to feet, as if to keep in a knot the
resolution of her mind; for the second and in that young season the
stronger nature grafted by her education fixed her to the religious
duty of obeying and pleasing her father, in contempt, almost in
abhorrence, of personal inclinations tending to thwart him and imperil
his pledged word. She knew she had inclinations to be tender. Her hands
released, how promptly might she not have been confiding her
innumerable perplexities of sentiment and emotion to paper, undermining
self-governance; self-respect, perhaps! Further than that, she did not
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