England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Farms -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction
“Not but I doubt Marget would never ha’ come,” Bob was drawling on in
his tired voice. “There’s over much work on a farm to suit her by a
deal. I reckon she’d ha’ thought it a dreary spot an’ all. She’s one
as likes seeing folks go by, and a sight o’ clattin’ an’ suchlike in
the street. But the lad here isn’t bothered wi’ a missis just yet,
nor like to be, as far as we know. There’s nowt to keep him from
throwing up his job. He’s free to do as suits him, is Tom.”
And still Thomas did not speak, ashamed of himself and yet holding
himself hard. The aversion with which he had set out to meet this
probable demand arose in him again in a fierce flood and all but
forced him to his feet. It was a wet night, or he might never have
come at all, but on an evening like this Agnes would be sure to be
fast at home. There would be no chance of meeting her about the
fields or lanes. He could never have brought himself to come so
far, while the hope of her face was behind each turn and hedge....
Yet here he was being asked to leave the spot for good—he, whose
uncertainty could not stay one hour!
Suddenly he spoke, without preamble or excuse, long after the
question seemed to have fainted away and died, ashamed. “I’m no use,
neither,” he heard himself saying at last, his voice sounding dull
and cold over the wrath and shame within. He was still staining at
the sky while he spoke. Failure may look at the floor because of the
burden on its back, but success, when it makes its refusal, must look
up. It was then that the moon slid round the corner, and drew nearer,
and looked in. He felt a spasm of rage against it, as at another
spectator of the ignoble scene.
“Ay, but you’ve the brass saved all right!” Bob exclaimed, twisting
his head to get a glimpse of his brother’s face. His discomfort at
his own position in the affair seemed for the moment to be swallowed
up in surprise. “Many’s the time you’ve tellt me on’t, I’ sure, and
how you meant taking a farm afore so long. I’d ha’ thought this had
fallen in for you just right.”
“I’m not ready,” Thomas said doggedly. “I mun have a bit more time.
Happen another year I could see my way....”
“A year’s neither here nor there, surely, if yon’s all?”
“It’d be two, happen—ay, and maybe more. I don’t rightly know. I
can’t rightly say.”
“Ay, well, it’s now or never for the old dad,” Bob said. “A year
or two’s no use to the old chap, wi’ notice to quit pinned to his
jacket-tail. What’s gitten you, lad, to be hanging back like this?”
He raised his voice and spoke more firmly, sure of his cause. “The
spot’ll suit you, waint it, come to that?”
“Ay, I’d like it right well.”
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