The Madden boy was worried about his laundry. It was a week late, he
couldn’t remember who was doing it for him, and besides he was having
one of those moods that made him worry about little things. It was not
so much the tragic lack of socks, he told Harvey Todd, but there were
three shirts in it that belonged to Bob Stuart.
“I hate not returning people’s clothes,” he said. “I hate wearing them
in the first place but this time I couldn’t help it. It’s maddening.”
Harvey never rose to the heights of hysteria, and this time he was
almost phlegmatic. “It’ll be along,” he said. “Don’t forget, some of it
was mine. I’ll help you yell when the time comes. Jesus, I’m late.” He
slammed down his cup on the table, between a broken tumbler and an eggy
plate, and hurried out of the door, carrying his hat.
“Canaille,” said Teddy humorously. “Cochon,” he added into the mirror,
scowling fiercely.
“Señor?” asked a tremulous voice at the door. A little girl held out a
huge bundle as he opened the screen. “Eighty-four cents,” she said. “My
mother says she can’t find one sock. She send tomorrow.”
“Oh, yes? Well, tell her I’ll pay then.”
“Si, señor.” There was boredom and cynicism in her tone as she turned
away. Teddy’s eyes narrowed; he thought of challenging her, but what was
there to say? He shrugged and forgot it, sitting by the table and
looking vacantly at the unopened bundle. The sun crept up his leg and
his kneecap began to prickle pleasantly under the linen trousers. He sat
still until the bundle blurred and moved gently out of itself,
projecting a phantom bundle an inch away from its own crisp outlines,
hovering a little above the shining top of the table on which it had
lain. He dreamed; a good picture like this, with the checkered
table-cloth and the spots of sunlight.... A fly bit him savagely on the
ankle and he stood up.
The picture waiting for him must be finished today or he would hate
himself. Last night he should not have stopped after working up to it
all day. Had he gone on, it might have been really good. Could he ever
do anything really good? Why couldn’t he get immersed, and forget people
and money and his own fading flesh? He looked at the easel and felt that
he would never see it as it should be; he almost wept from exasperation.
There were so many interruptions. There was his own careless
incompetence, and his eternal itching to see people and to have people
love him, and there was money. Money.... A familiar panic began to rise.
He seized a brush and set to work.
It wouldn’t go. He moved about distractedly, trying to clean up the
room. The dirty plates were piled up in the sink; he made a few dabs at
them and changed his mind. He looked apathetically at the stiff spotted
table-cloth and hung up a leather coat that had slipped from its nail.
Then he caught a glimpse of the painting from a new angle; a real
feeling of interest persuaded him to get to work again.
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