mirror, in the mind of his friend. And then, too, what was a far
deeper joy, literature and poetry began to yield up their secrets to
him. Poetry had been to him before, a gracious, soulless thing like a
tree or a flower, and had been apprehended purely in its external
aspect. But now he suddenly saw the emotion that burnt beneath, not
indeed of the love that is mingled with desire--that had still no
meaning for the soul of the boy, or only the significance of a far-off
mystery; but he perceived for the first time that it was indeed
possible to hold something dearer than oneself, one's country, one's
school, one's friend--something large and strong, that could intervene
between one's hopes and oneself.
Hugh was indeed not yet, if ever, to learn the force of these large
words--patriotism, honour, self-surrender, public spirit; he remained
an individualist to the end. His country never became for him the
glowing reality that it means for some. It was dear because his
friends, who were also Englishmen, were dear; and his school for the
same reason. If he had a friend in the School Eleven Hugh would always
rather that his friend should be distinguished than that the school
should win. He could not disentangle the personal fibre, or conceive
of an institution, a society, apart from the beings of which it was
composed.
But his friendship broke in pieces, once and for all, the dumb
isolation in which he had hitherto lived. It opened for him the door
of a larger and finer life, and his soul, endowed with a new
elasticity, seemed to leap, to run, to climb, with a freshness and
vigour that he had never before so much as guessed at.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account