American fiction -- 20th century; Bohemianism -- Fiction
“I am a better egoist than the people around me,” he said. “I will
not be forced to display my private organs as often as they. Only an
absolute egoist can afford to be calm and more obscurely naked. If I
indulge, at rare intervals, a secret grin will gain its reward.”
His thoughts had mounted these conclusions as he sat one night in
Clara’s studio, with his legs tucked in above a scarlet cushion. She
looked at him with a petulant question on her face.
“Carl, why are you forever arousing the enmity of people?” she asked.
“Because I detest most of them; because I like straight lines and
angles in conduct while they prefer curves and circles; and for a
variety of reasons.”
“But, Carl, you don’t need to be so deliberate about antagonizing
people.”
“I’m not. I’m simply myself most of the time--a difficult task, but it
can be achieved.”
“Well, everybody is sneering at your latest stunt. Why, oh why, did
you have to parade down Scott street smoking that long Chinese pipe of
yours, with a red ribbon tied to the stem? Carl, sometimes I almost
believe that you love to pose!”
“I ain’t guilty, I swear it. When that group of my poems came out in
the big eastern magazine I simply felt that the event demanded an
unashamed celebration. It was like the christening of a healthy child
and I wanted something stronger than whiskey or wine. An odd longing
that comes to me sometimes. I decided to commit the inexplicable
crime of becoming immersed in a new toy of motion. I fitted a rubber
mouthpiece over the tip of the pipe and used it half of the time as a
cane. I’ve been told that a crowd followed me but I didn’t turn my head
to investigate.”
“Well, everyone has heard about it and they’re all calling you a cheap
little poseur. And, really, I don’t know that they’re wrong. I never
felt so angry in my life. You love to attract the attention of other
people and you’ll make every kind of excuse rather than admit this
fact!”
He showed an outburst of surface anger.
“You can act more impulsively in a camp of lumber-jacks than before a
crowd of so-called artists and writers,” he said. “The lumber-jacks
might regard you with a simple amazement, or an unrestrained laughter,
but at least they’d grant you the sincerity of insanity! Since I must
choose between stupid people I prefer the more roughly natural ones.”
“I’m tired of hearing you call everybody a hypocrite,” said Clara.
“It’s just a nice way that you have of defending your own actions!”
He arose and reached for his cap.
“I’ll leave you to this weariness,” he said angrily. “It may be
possible that, as I walk down the street, no one will believe that I’m
striding along in a highly deliberate manner. The thought is pleasant.”
“Carl, don’t be foolish,” she said, half-repentantly, but without
answering he walked out of the studio.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account