Suddenly he reappeared upon the stage. His reappearance created intense
interest, and the theatre trembled with applause. The public was so glad
to see its old favourite again! Schoenlein’s heart bounded, as of old,
responsive to that thunder of applause; but the joy was transient: his
pride was soon once more to be laid low. That very public, which had
welcomed him so enthusiastically, grew indifferent by the end of the
week. In truth his acting had lost its former grandeur. Flashes of the
old genius there still were, from time to time, but they only served to
make more obvious the indifference of the whole performance. People
shook their heads, and said, “He was certainly grown too old for the
stage.”
He never reappeared.
Meanwhile Franz continued his triumphant career. He played at almost
every town in Germany; and even the old men thought him superior to the
actors of “their day.” The greatest triumph an actor can achieve is to
make the “laudator temporis acti” forget for a moment the illusions of
his youth, and confess that, even seen through the magnifying mist which
envelops and aggrandises the past, this living actor is as great as
those who are no more.
But Franz, amidst his brilliant success, was far from happy. The stage
was the scene of his triumphs, but home was the scene of his despair. He
was in a false, a very false position. Petted and idolised by the
loveliest women in Germany, he had learned to look upon his wife as what
she was—a woman past her prime, faded in beauty, insignificant in mind.
He began to blush for her! This is perhaps the cruellest torture a
husband can know, because it affects his self-love as keenly as his
love. It is a torture which generally results from such ill-assorted
unions. Slowly had the conviction dawned upon him—but it had come. He
struggled against it, but it would not be set aside; it pressed on and
on, till at last it fairly gained admittance into his mind, and made him
wretched.
For observe, it was not her faded beauty which made him blush—it was not
that she was so much older—it was because this faded insignificant woman
was fretful, jealous, ungenerous, and unprincipled. The perception of
these faults of disposition opened his eyes to the perception of her
faults of person; they raised the question in his mind—_who_ is this
whose jealousy irritates, whose fretfulness distresses me? He began to
scrutinise her, and the scales fell from his eyes!
“My dear Clara,” he said to her one day, “what in heaven’s name has
changed you so? You used to be cheerful—now you are unbearably peevish.”
“And what has changed _you_ so, Franz?”
“I am not aware of any change!”
“No!” she said ironically.
“In what, pray?”
“You used to be fond and attentive, and now you are cold and
neglectful.”
“If I am so, whose fault is it?”
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