When Egerton arrived at the village, and inquired for the person whose
address had been given to him, he was referred to the cottage in which
she had last lodged, and was told that she had been gone some days—the
day after her child was buried. Her child buried! Egerton staid to
inquire no more; thus he heard nothing of the infant that had been put
out to nurse. He walked slowly into the churchyard, and stood for some
minutes gazing on the small new mound; then, pressing his hand on the
heart to which all emotion had been forbidden, he re-entered his chaise
and returned to London. The sole reason for acknowledging his marriage
seemed to him now removed. Nora’s name had escaped reproach. Even had
his painful position with regard to Harley not constrained him to
preserve his secret, there was every motive to the World’s wise and
haughty son not to acknowledge a derogatory and foolish marriage, now
that none lived whom concealment could wrong.
Audley mechanically resumed his former life,—sought to resettle his
thoughts on the grand objects of ambitious men. His poverty still
pressed on him; his pecuniary debt to Harley stung and galled his
peculiar sense of honour. He saw no way to clear his estates, to repay
his friend, but by some rich alliance. Dead to love, he faced this
prospect first with repugnance, then with apathetic indifference. Levy,
of whose treachery towards himself and Nora he was unaware, still held
over him the power that the money-lender never loses over the man that
has owed, owes, or may owe again. Levy was ever urging him to propose to
the rich Miss Leslie;—Lady Lansmere, willing to atone, as she thought,
for his domestic loss, urged the same;—Harley, influenced by his mother,
wrote from the Continent to the same effect.
“Manage it as you will,” at last said Egerton to Levy, “so that I am not
a wife’s pensioner.”
“Propose for me if you will,” he said to Lady Lansmere—“I cannot woo—I
cannot talk of love.”
Somehow or other the marriage, with all its rich advantages to the
ruined gentleman, was thus made up. And Egerton, as we have seen, was
the polite and dignified husband before the world—married to a woman who
adored him. It is the common fate of men like him to be loved too well!
On her deathbed his heart was touched by his wife’s melancholy
reproach—“Nothing I could do has ever made you love me!” “It is true,”
answered Audley, with tears in his voice and eyes—“Nature gave me but a
small fund of what women like you call ‘love,’ and I lavished it all
away.” And he then told her, though with reserve, some portion of his
former history;—and that soothed her; for when she saw that he _had_
loved, and _could_ grieve, she caught a glimpse of the human heart she
had not seen before. She died, forgiving him, and blessing.
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