Blade-O'-Grass. Golden Grain. and Bread and Cheese and Kisses.Farjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
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Blade-O'-Grass. Golden Grain. and Bread and Cheese and Kisses.
Farjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
Christmas stories; Fiction
I thanked her, and taking the basin from her laid it aside. Then
closing the door again, I approached Blade-o'-Grass, and placed my
hand on her shoulder. She gazed at me with no sign of recognition, and
turned her face again towards her child. I bent over the clay
tenderly. The child looked well in death. Never in its life had its
face worn so peaceful an expression. I sat on a chair beside the
hapless mother, and spoke to her of that other and better life into
which her child had entered; I spoke to her of the goodness of the
all-beneficent God, of the comprehensive love which He, who watches
over all His children, bears to the meanest of them. But my words
touched her not; she made no movement in response to them, but sat
motionless, with hopeless eyes fixed upon the child. I did not dare
attempt to arouse her attention by sternness. Every word that came
from my lips seemed to me to be dissolved into gentle utterance by the
intense mother's love, which closed the door upon all outward
sympathy. And still I continued,
'Think,' I said, in my most earnest tones, 'think but for a moment
Cast your thoughts from your own misery and your own unhappiness, and
let them dwell wholly and solely upon your child.'
A gleam that faintly expressed scornful wonder passed into her eyes. I
hailed even that faint sign with gladness.
'The mother's love that dwells so strongly in your breast, is it as
sweet as it should be, is it as perfect as it should be, if it blind
you to the happier lot that lies before your child, and make you
regardless of it? Love in its perfect form is shown in unselfishness.
Are you unselfish in your grief? While your child lived you found your
happiness and your consolation in her. But was she happy? Carry your
thoughts to the many times that you saw her in pain, that she suffered
hunger, that she cried because of the tiger that tormented her----'
A shiver passed over the form of Blade-o'-Grass; her stony gaze
relaxed, and I saw that I had aroused her attention.
'----And think if a happier lot lies before her, as it does, if even
now the power is given to her, by the wisdom and the goodness of God,
to comprehend and be grateful for the love which has filled your heart
from her birth--think but for a moment, if this be so, As It Is!
whether you should not rather rejoice than mourn? By doing this you
would show love in its most perfect form of unselfishness. All her
pain is gone, all her sufferings have passed away, and the tiger is
stilled for ever. Yes, this child, born in sin,'----
'No, no!' cried Blade-o'-Grass, in a piercing tone of anguish,
springing to her feet, and pleading for her lost child in the strong
agony of her soul. 'Born in love! In love--in love!'
'Born in love,' I said sadly, 'and yet in sin'----
'I didn't know,' she sobbed, sinking again to the foot of the bed.
''Ow could I know; and 'ow could baby know? O, don't be 'ard on baby!
O, my 'eart, my life! O, baby, baby!'
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