Illegitimate children -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Middle West -- Fiction
“Poor old Rob, she’s got you catalogued,” he said, and the talk of
adoption stopped. Neither of them had taken it seriously--Jennie,
unmentioned, remained insurmountable. But Mathilda had entered her
wedge, without an effort. Being intensely feminine, circumstances moved
toward her, not she toward them, an achievement that resulted from
indicating definitely first, then vaguely opposing, everything she
wanted.
Blaydon lifted his boy to his shoulder and walked through the house to
the drawing room windows. He talked little more than monosyllabically
to his children and had a great way of stilling their excited glee,
when he wanted to, by the tone of his voice. As they stood at the
window he wished that his gaze could go on over rolling hills to the
horizon. He wanted these boys to grow up with horses and vigorous
sports; to see them framed against green earth and wide skies. He
wanted them to draw in their early appreciations from the bare soil of
their own land. Somehow that now appeared to him a spiritual necessity
of which he had had too little himself, and it was the leading ambition
that possessed him after a life of sophisticated pleasure.
A week later Mrs. Blaydon died. It was as though the new direction of
their thoughts had penetrated to her intuitively and left her without
strength to battle further.
It was not long before Blaydon felt free to go ahead with his plans.
But the speed with which Mathilda proceeded to execute hers surprised
and even shocked him. She did not go directly to Ellen. Instead she
consulted Dr. Schottman, and readily gained his partisanship. It was
from Schottman that Ellen first heard of Aunt Mathilda’s intentions
toward Moira....
For the life of her she could not tell at first whether she was happy
or miserable at the suggestion. In one moment she rejoiced over the
good fortune of her daughter; in the next she experienced a sense of
terrible deprivation and loneliness. She was not so sentimental as to
minimize the extent of her renunciation--to hope that some crumbs from
the table of Moira’s affection would fall to her. It meant a thorough
transfer of parenthood and a ruthless blotting out of the truth.
One of Mrs. Seymour’s reasons for adopting the child at once, as she
explained to Schottman, was that the boys were young enough to grow up
none the wiser. Ellen did not deceive herself. Moira would never know
her, never think of her except as a servant.
She recalled sorrowfully the two happy prospects she had brought with
her into that house, “Moira will love me when she is grown up, and we
will do so many nice things together,” and “Who knows, some day Moira
may have a father....” But Moira would never have a real father now
through her, and Moira would never love her in the sense she had meant.
A gleam of comfort crept in the chinks of her hopeless speculation.
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