Bildungsromans; Blind -- Fiction; Parent and child -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
It was so necessary to talk; you had to, and with someone who could
understand or sympathise with your ideas. How they would talk, June and
he, for she must and would understand how he needed someone young. When
you were blind and beginning to make discoveries, you had to tell them
to somebody; besides, talking was the only thing you could do as well
as anyone else. And surely she would not dance, for who was there to
dance with her, unless there was another man? Perhaps there was, and
then the whole dull round of country conversation would go round again,
and when one had gone through it so often before. Let them talk about
things, not people. And then, of course, they could talk about
themselves.
Why had he never learnt to play the piano? It would be so nice to be
able to sit down and make the lazy notes ripple through this echoing
house, up the stairs and through doors and windows to be lost in the
wetness of the garden. She had known how. She had played music
wandering out to the gossamer, and so quiet; as raindrops gather on a
twig and then slip off, so had her notes fallen in such a silver,
liquid sound. But then the sun came out. It was changed now. The hut,
the trees and each leaf suddenly had a spirit of their own. And the
wind bore them down to you that they might whisper in your ear, and be
companions as you sat in the dark. So that you were not really lonely;
there were only the deaf who were really cut off. How dreadful to be
deaf, not to hear this wind choosing out the leaves and carrying them
down gently that they might rustle on the ground.
Would June be like this? So that she could sit still and listen. Surely
she would not want to break out into a great screaming laugh to
announce that someone had been hurt, or something broken? She also
might have dreams and be able to understand his, perhaps. And yet she
would not be sickly, but rather like a sunflower, absorbing from the
sun, and so proud, so still. Women were like flowers; it was silly, but
they were. The sudden flutter of wings of a bird who was going
elsewhere to drink more in and pour it out again to the sun brought the
grass and trees together, and the earth that kept them both. Women
understood like that. Their intuitions exalted them to the simple
understanding of the trees, for trees were so simple; there was no
remoteness in them as of mountains and their false sublimity. But he
had not met any women who were women. Still, June felt like that, and
her loneliness would have taught her silence, for she could not have
met many people.
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