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In the pause that followed they looked at each other. In the past when
they had looked at each other like that they had felt such a boundless
understanding between them that their souls had, as it were, put their
arms round each other and dropped into the same sea, content to be
drowned, like mournful lovers. But now, the surprising thing was that
it was he who held back. He who said:
“What a marvellous listener you are. When you look at me with those
wild eyes I feel that I could tell you things that I would never
breathe to another human being.”
Was there just a hint of mockery in his voice or was it her fancy? She
could not be sure.
“Before I met you,” he said, “I had never spoken of myself to anybody.
How well I remember one night, the night that I brought you the little
Christmas tree, telling you all about my childhood. And of how I was so
miserable that I ran away and lived under a cart in our yard for two
days without being discovered. And you listened, and your eyes shone,
and I felt that you had even made the little Christmas tree listen too,
as in a fairy story.”
But of that evening she had remembered a little pot of caviare. It had
cost seven and sixpence. He could not get over it. Think of it—a tiny
jar like that costing seven and sixpence. While she ate it he watched
her, delighted and shocked.
“No, really, that is eating money. You could not get seven shillings
into a little pot that size. Only think of the profit they must make. .
. .” And he had begun some immensely complicated calculations. . . .
But now good-bye to the caviare. The Christmas tree was on the table,
and the little boy lay under the cart with his head pillowed on the
yard dog.
“The dog was called Bosun,” she cried delightedly.
But he did not follow. “Which dog? Had you a dog? I don’t remember a
dog at all.”
“No, no. I mean the yard dog when you were a little boy.” He laughed
and snapped the cigarette case to.
“Was he? Do you know I had forgotten that. It seems such ages ago. I
cannot believe that it is only six years. After I had recognized you
to-day—I had to take such a leap—I had to take a leap over my whole
life to get back to that time. I was such a kid then.” He drummed on
the table. “I’ve often thought how I must have bored you. And now I
understand so perfectly why you wrote to me as you did—although at the
time that letter nearly finished my life. I found it again the other
day, and I couldn’t help laughing as I read it. It was so clever—such a
true picture of me.” He glanced up. “You’re not going?”
She had buttoned her collar again and drawn down her veil.
“Yes, I am afraid I must,” she said, and managed a smile. Now she knew
that he had been mocking.
“Ah, no, please,” he pleaded. “Don’t go just for a moment,” and he
caught up one of her gloves from the table and clutched at it as if
that would hold her. “I see so few people to talk to nowadays, that I
have turned into a sort of barbarian,” he said. “Have I said something
to hurt you?”
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