Europe -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; New Zealand -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories, New Zealand
A wild white morning, a tearing, rocking wind. Monica sat down before
the mirror. She was pale. The maid combed back her dark hair—combed it
all back—and her face was like a mask, with pointed eyelids and dark
red lips. As she stared at herself in the blueish shadowy glass she
suddenly felt—oh, the strangest, most tremendous excitement filling her
slowly, slowly, until she wanted to fling out her arms, to laugh, to
scatter everything, to shock Marie, to cry: “I’m free. I’m free. I’m
free as the wind.” And now all this vibrating, trembling, exciting,
flying world was hers. It was her kingdom. No, no, she belonged to
nobody but Life.
“That will do, Marie,” she stammered. “My hat, my coat, my bag. And now
get me a taxi.” Where was she going? Oh, anywhere. She could not stand
this silent flat, noiseless Marie, this ghostly, quiet, feminine
interior. She must be out; she must be driving quickly—anywhere,
anywhere.
“The taxi is there, Madame.” As she pressed open the big outer doors of
the flats the wild wind caught her and floated her across the pavement.
Where to? She got in, and smiling radiantly at the cross, cold-looking
driver, she told him to take her to her hairdresser’s. What would she
have done without her hairdresser? Whenever Monica had nowhere else to
go to or nothing on earth to do she drove there. She might just have
her hair waved, and by that time she’d have thought out a plan. The
cross, cold driver drove at a tremendous pace, and she let herself be
hurled from side to side. She wished he would go faster and faster. Oh,
to be free of Princes’ at one-thirty, of being the tiny kitten in the
swansdown basket, of being the Arabian, and the grave, delighted child
and the little wild creature. . . . “Never again,” she cried aloud,
clenching her small fist. But the cab had stopped, and the driver was
standing holding the door open for her.
The hairdresser’s shop was warm and glittering. It smelled of soap and
burnt paper and wallflower brilliantine. There was Madame behind the
counter, round, fat, white, her head like a powder-puff rolling on a
black satin pin-cushion. Monica always had the feeling that they loved
her in this shop and understood her—the real her—far better than many
of her friends did. She was her real self here, and she and Madame had
often talked—quite strangely—together. Then there was George who did
her hair, young, dark, slender George. She was really fond of him.
But to-day—how curious! Madame hardly greeted her. Her face was whiter
than ever, but rims of bright red showed round her blue bead eyes, and
even the rings on her pudgy fingers did not flash. They were cold,
dead, like chips of glass. When she called through the wall-telephone
to George there was a note in her voice that had never been there
before. But Monica would not believe this. No, she refused to. It was
just her imagination. She sniffed greedily the warm, scented air, and
passed behind the velvet curtain into the small cubicle.
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