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She lifted her head. “It’s raining,” she murmured. And her voice was
like his when he had said: “I love that little boy.”
Well. Why didn’t they just give way to it—yield—and see what will
happen then? But no. Vague and troubled though they were, they knew
enough to realize their precious friendship was in danger. She was the
one who would be destroyed—not they—and they’d be no party to that.
He got up, knocked out his pipe, ran his hand through his hair and
said: “I have been wondering very much lately whether the novel of the
future will be a psychological novel or not. How sure are you that
psychology _qua_ psychology has got anything to do with literature at
all?”
“Do you mean you feel there’s quite a chance that the mysterious
non-existent creatures—the young writers of to-day—are trying simply to
jump the psycho-analyst’s claim?”
“Yes, I do. And I think it’s because this generation is just wise
enough to know that it is sick and to realize that its only chance of
recovery is by going into its symptoms—making an exhaustive study of
them—tracking them down—trying to get at the root of the trouble.”
“But oh,” she wailed. “What a dreadfully dismal outlook.”
“Not at all,” said he. “Look here . . .” On the talk went. And now it
seemed they really had succeeded. She turned in her chair to look at
him while she answered. Her smile said: “We have won.” And he smiled
back, confident: “Absolutely.”
But the smile undid them. It lasted too long; it became a grin. They
saw themselves as two little grinning puppets jigging away in
nothingness.
“What have we been talking about?” thought he. He was so utterly bored
he almost groaned.
“What a spectacle we have made of ourselves,” thought she. And she saw
him laboriously—oh, laboriously—laying out the grounds and herself
running after, putting here a tree and there a flowery shrub and here a
handful of glittering fish in a pool. They were silent this time from
sheer dismay.
The clock struck six merry little pings and the fire made a soft
flutter. What fools they were—heavy, stodgy, elderly—with positively
upholstered minds.
And now the silence put a spell upon them like solemn music. It was
anguish—anguish for her to bear it and he would die—he’d die if it were
broken. . . . And yet he longed to break it. Not by speech. At any rate
not by their ordinary maddening chatter. There was another way for them
to speak to each other, and in the new way he wanted to murmur: “Do you
feel this too? Do you understand it at all?” . . .
Instead, to his horror, he heard himself say: “I must be off; I’m
meeting Brand at six.”
What devil made him say that instead of the other? She jumped—simply
jumped out of her chair, and he heard her crying: “You must rush, then.
He’s so punctual. Why didn’t you say so before?”
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