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Baron paused, frowning. “I meant,” he explained patiently, “that they
are people who want to be as good as they can, and who want to give one
another encouragement.”
The child was conscious of his wish to be conciliatory. She tried to
restrain herself. “Well,” she asked, “if they want to be good, why
don’t they just _be_ good? What’s the use of worrying about it?”
“I’m afraid it isn’t quite so simple a matter as all that.”
Bonnie May’s wrath arose in spite of herself. She was recalling certain
indignities. “I don’t see anything in it but a bum performance. Do you
know what I think they go there for?”
“That’s what I’m trying to find out.”
“I think they go there to watch each other--to find out something bad
about each other.”
“Bonnie May!”
“I do! And I’ve had pretty near enough, too. You asked me and I told
you. You’re all asking me to do things, and asking me questions; and
then if I don’t agree with you in every way I’m wrong. That may look
all right to you, but it doesn’t to me. If I’ve got to take everything,
I mean to be on my way.”
Baron remained silent a full minute. When he spoke again his voice was
persuasive, gentle. “I’m anxious to understand your difficulties,” he
said. “I’m anxious to have you understand ours. I’m sorry I criticised
you. I’m sure you mean to be fair.”
She looked at him with a light of gratitude in her eyes, a quiver of
emotion passing over her face. She had an intense desire to justify
herself--at least to him.
“Do you know what was the first thing they asked me?”
“Your name, probably.”
“No, Mrs. Shepard told them that. _They asked me if I was a good little
girl!_”
“But I don’t see any harm in that. Why shouldn’t they have asked you?”
“You don’t! Do you suppose that I was going to tell them that I was--or
that I wasn’t? What nonsense! Are you ‘a good young man’? How does a
question like that sound?”
Baron pondered. “Well--” he suggested.
“Well, I wouldn’t stand it. I asked her if she was ‘a good old
woman’--and the frowzy old thing stared at me just as ugly! She walked
way down into the parquet without looking back. She’d been grinning
when she asked me. I’ll bet she won’t grin like that very soon again.”
Baron walked to the window and looked out dully, to gain time.
How extraordinary the child’s attitude was! And yet.... He could
understand that she might have been the only child in the troupe with
which she travelled, and that her older companions, weary of mimicry
and make-believe when their work was done, might have employed very
frank, mature speech toward each other and their young companion.
He turned away from the window with a sigh. “Won’t you take my word for
it, Bonnie May, that these people mean well, and that one should speak
of them with respect, even if one cannot speak of them with affection?”
“But they don’t mean well. What’s the good of stalling?” She turned
until her back was toward him, and sat so, her cheek in her hand, and
her whole body eloquent of discouragement.
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