He wore the same air when, on the next afternoon after his arrival, the
family went to the cemetery outside the Castle Gate to lay a wreath on
the grave. They stood together on the snowy path in front of the large
tablet on which were the names of those resting there, surrounding the
family arms cut in the stone. Before them was the upright marble cross
that stood at the edge of the bare little churchyard grove. They were
all there except Clothilde, who was at Thankless, nursing her ailing
father.
Tony laid the wreath on the tablet, where her father’s name stood on
the stone in fresh gold letters: then, despite the snow, she knelt
down by the grave to pray. Her black veil played about her, and her
full skirt lay spread out in picturesque folds. God alone knew how
much grief and religious emotion--and, on the other hand, how much
of a pretty woman’s self-conscious pleasure--there was in the bowed
attitude. Thomas was not in the mood to think about it. But Christian
looked sidewise at his sister with a mixture of mockery and misgiving,
as if to say: “Can you really carry that off? Shan’t you feel silly
when you get up? How uncomfortable!” Tony caught this look as she
rose, but she was not in the least put out. She tossed her head back,
arranged her veil and skirt, and turned with dignified assurance to
go; whereupon Christian was obviously relieved.
The deceased Consul’s fanatical love of God and of the Saviour had been
an emotion foreign to his forebears, who never cherished other than the
normal, every-day sentiments proper to good citizens. The two living
Buddenbrooks had in their turn their own idiosyncrasies. One of these
appeared to be a nervous distaste for the expression of feeling. Thomas
had certainly felt the death of his father with painful acuteness,
much as his grandfather had felt the loss of his. But he could not
sink on his knees by his grave. He had never, like his sister Tony,
flung himself across the table sobbing like a child; and he shrank from
hearing the heart-broken words in which Madame Grünlich, from roast
to dessert, loved to celebrate the character and person of her dead
father. Such outbursts he met with composed silence or a reserved nod.
And yet, when nobody had mentioned or was thinking of the dead, it
would be just then that his eyes would fill with slow tears, although
his facial expression remained unchanged.
It was different with Christian. He unfortunately did not succeed in
preserving his composure at the naïve and childish outpourings of
his sister. He bent over his plate, turned his head away, and looked
as though he wanted to sink through the floor; and several times he
interrupted her with a low, tormented “Good God, Tony!” his large nose
screwed into countless tiny wrinkles.
In fact, he showed disquiet and embarrassment whenever the conversation
turned to the dead. It seemed as though he feared and avoided not only
the indelicate expression of deep and solemn feeling, but even the
feeling itself.
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