And Sister Leandra came. She put down her cloak and little handbag,
took off the grey veil which she wore on the street over her white one,
and went softly about her work, in her gentle, friendly way, the rosary
at her waist clicking as she moved. She remained a day and a night with
the querulous, not always patient sufferer, and then withdrew, almost
apologetic over the human weakness that enforced a little repose. She
was replaced by another sister, but came back again after she had slept.
The Frau Consul required constant attendance at her bedside. The worse
her condition grew, the more she bent all her thoughts and all her
energies upon her illness, for which she felt a naïve hatred. Nearly
all her life she had been a woman of the world, with a quiet, native,
and permanent love of life and good living. Yet she had filled her
latter years with piety and charitable deeds: largely out of loyalty
toward her dead husband, but also, perhaps, by reason of an unconscious
impulse which bade her make her peace with Heaven for her own strong
vitality, and induce it to grant her a gentle death despite the
tenacious clutch she had always had on life. But the gentle death was
not to be hers. Despite many a sore trial, her form was quite unbowed,
her eyes still clear. She still loved to set a good table, to dress
well and richly, to ignore events that were unpleasant, and to share
with complacency in the high regard that was everywhere felt for her
son. And now this illness, this inflammation of the lungs, had attacked
her erect form without any previous warning, without any preparation
to soften the blow. There had been no spiritual anticipation, none of
that mining and sapping of the forces which slowly, painfully estranges
us from life and rouses in us the sweet longing for a better world,
for the end, for peace. No, the old Frau Consul, despite the spiritual
courses of her latter years, felt scarce prepared to die; and she was
filled with agony of spirit at the thought that if this were indeed the
end, then this illness, of itself, in awful haste, in the last hour,
must, with bodily torments, break down her spirit and bring her to
surrender.
She prayed much; but almost more she watched, as often as she
was conscious, over her own condition: felt her pulse, took her
temperature, and fought her cough. But the pulse was poor, the
temperature mounted after falling a little, and she passed from
chills to fever and delirium; her cough increased, bringing up a
blood-impregnated mucous, and she was alarmed by the difficulty she
had in breathing. It was accounted for by the fact that now not only a
lobe of the right lung, but the whole right lung, was affected, with
even distinct traces of a process in the left, which Dr. Langhals,
looking at his nails, called hepatization, and about which Dr. Grabow
said nothing at all. The fever wasted the patient relentlessly. The
digestion failed. Slowly, inexorably, the decline of strength went on.
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