“Yes, my dear Senator,” Dr. Grabow said, and took Thomas Buddenbrook by
the hand, “it is now both lungs--we have not been able to prevent it.
That is always serious, you know as well as I do. I should not attempt
to deceive you. No matter what the age of the patient, the condition
is serious; and if you ask me again to-day whether in my opinion your
brother should be written to--or perhaps a telegram would be better--I
should hesitate to deter you from it. How is he, by the way? A good
fellow, Christian; I’ve always liked him immensely.--But for Heaven’s
sake, my dear Senator, don’t draw any exaggerated conclusions from what
I say. There is no immediate danger--I am foolish to take the word in
my mouth! But still--under the circumstances, you know, one must reckon
with the unexpected. We are very well satisfied with your mother as a
patient. She helps all she can, she doesn’t leave us in the lurch; no,
on my word, she is an incomparable patient! So there is still great
hope, my dear sir. And we must hope for the best.”
But there is a moment when hope becomes something artificial and
insincere. There is a change in the patient. He alters--there is
something strange about him--he is not as he was in life. He speaks,
but we do not know how to reply: what he says is strange, it seems to
cut off his retreat back to life, it condemns him to death. And when
that moment comes, even if he is our dearest upon this earth, we do not
know how to wish him back. If we could bid him arise and walk, he would
be as frightful as one risen from his coffin.
Dreadful symptoms of the coming dissolution showed themselves, even
though the organs, still in command of a tenacious will, continued
to function. It had now been weeks since Frau Consul first took to
her bed with a cold; and she began to have bed sores. They would
not heal, and grew worse and worse. She could not sleep, because of
pain, coughing and shortness of breath, and also because she herself
clung to consciousness with all her might. Only for minutes at a time
did she lose herself in fever; but now she began, even when she was
conscious, to talk to people who had long been dead. One afternoon, in
the twilight, she said suddenly, in a loud, fervent, anxious voice,
“Yes, my dear Jean, I am coming!” And the immediacy of the reply was
such that one almost thought to hear the voice of the deceased Consul
calling her.
Christian arrived. He came from Hamburg, where he had been, he said,
on business. He only stopped a short time in the sick-room, and left
it, his eyes roving wildly, rubbing his forehead, and saying “It’s
frightful--it’s frightful--I can’t stand it any longer.”
Pastor Pringsheim came, measured Sister Leandra with a chilling glance,
and prayed with a beautifully modulated voice at the bedside.
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