No one dreamed what went on in Thomas Buddenbrook. No one must
guess. But it was just this keeping everybody in ignorance of his
mortification, his hatred, his powerlessness, that was so cruelly hard!
People were beginning to find him a little ludicrous; but perhaps their
laugh would have turned to pity if they had even dimly suspected how
much he was on his guard against their laughter! He had seen it coming
long before, he had felt it beforehand, before any one else had such
an idea in his head. His much-carped-at vanity had its source largely
in this fear. He had been first to see, with dismay, the growing
disparity between himself and his lovely wife, on whom the years had
not laid a finger. And now, since the advent of Herr von Throta, he had
to fight with the last remnant of his strength to dissimulate his own
misgivings, in order that they might not make him a laughing-stock in
the eyes of the community.
Gerda Buddenbrook and the eccentric young officer met each other,
naturally, in the world of music. Herr von Throta played the piano,
violin, viola, cello, and flute, and played them all unusually well.
Often the Senator became aware of an impending visit when Herr von
Throta’s man passed the office-door with his master’s cello-case on his
back. Thomas Buddenbrook would sit at his desk and watch until he saw
his wife’s friend enter the house. Then, overhead in the salon, the
harmonies would rise and surge like waves, with singing, lamenting,
unearthly jubilation; would lift like clasped hands outstretched toward
Heaven; would float in vague ecstasies; would sink and die away into
sobbing, into night and silence. But they might roll and seethe, weep
and exult, foam up and enfold each other, as unnaturally as they liked!
They were not the worst. The worst, the actually torturing thing,
was the silence. It would sometimes reign so long, so long, and so
profoundly, above there in the salon, that it was impossible not to
feel afraid of it. There would be no tread upon the ceiling, not even a
chair would move--simply a soundless, speechless, deceiving, _secret_
silence. Thomas Buddenbrook would sit there, and the torture was such
that he sometimes softly groaned.
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