The small Johann Buddenbrook lay on his back, his little face, in
its frame of long light-brown hair, turned toward the room. He was
breathing softly but audibly into the pillow. Only the fingers showed
beneath the too long, too wide sleeves of his nightgown: one of his
hands lay on his breast, the other on the coverlet, with the bent
fingers jerking slightly now and then. The half-parted lips moved a
little too, as if forming words. From time to time a pained expression
mounted over the little face, beginning with a trembling of the chin,
making the lips and the delicate nostrils quiver and the muscles of the
narrow forehead contract. The long dark eyelashes did not hide the blue
shadows that lay in the corners of the eyes.
“He is dreaming,” said Frau Permaneder, moved.
She bent over the child and gently kissed his slumbering cheek; then
she composed the curtains and went back to the table, where Ida,
in the golden light from the lamp, drew a fresh stocking over her
darning-ball, looked at the hole, and began to fill it in.
“You are darning, Ida--funny, I can’t imagine you doing anything else.”
“Yes, yes, Tony. The boy tears everything, now he has begun to go to
school.”
“But he is such a quiet, gentle child.”
“Ye-s, he is. But even so--”
“Does he like going to school?”
“Oh, no-o, Tony. He would far rather have gone on here with me. And I
should have liked it better too. The masters haven’t known him since he
was a baby, the way I have--they don’t know how to take him, when they
are teaching him. It is often hard for him to pay attention, and he
gets tired so easily--”
“Poor darling! Have they whipped him yet?”
“No, indeed. Sakes alive, how could they have the heart, if the boy
once looked at them--?”
“How was it the first time he went? Did he cry?”
“Yes, indeed, he did. He cries so easily--not loud, but sort of to
himself. And he held your brother by the coat and begged to be allowed
to stop at home--”
“Oh, my brother took him, did he?--Yes, that is a hard moment, Ida.
I remember it like yesterday. I _howled_, I do assure you. I howled
like a chained-up dog; I felt dreadfully. And why? Because I had had
such a good time at home. I noticed at once that all the children from
the nice houses wept, and the others not at all--they just stared and
grinned at us.--Goodness, what is the matter with him, Ida?”
She turned in alarm toward the little bed, where a cry had interrupted
her chatter. It was a frightened cry, and it repeated itself in an
even more anguished tone the next minute; and then three, four, five
times more, one after another. “Oh, oh, _oh_!” It became a loud,
desperate protest against something which he saw or which was happening
to him. The next moment little Johann sat upright in bed, stammering
incomprehensibly, and staring with wide-open, strange golden-brown eyes
into a world which he, and he alone, could see.
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