Keeping himself oriented by a white tower at the cemetery gate, he
arrived at an area that had no graves as yet, no trees either, just
lawn. He made his way to the center of it, where there was a gently
swelling hummock, and sat down in the warm crinkly grass, resting
his back against the slope. The sky was lovely, enough clouds to be
interesting, but a great oval of pure blue just overhead--a pear-shaped
gateway to space.
He felt no grief at his sister's death, only the desire to think a bit,
have a quiet look at his past and another at the great future.
Alone like this, he dared to face his fate for a moment and admit to
himself that, all wishful thinking aside, it really began to look as if
he were going to live forever, or at least for a very long time.
Live forever! That was a phrase to give you a chill, he told himself.
And what to do, he asked himself, with all that time?
Back in the "strange weeks," he'd have had little trouble in answering
that question--if only he'd known then what he did now and realized
what was being offered him. For, during his sober decades, Ernie had
gradually come to a shrewdly accurate estimate of what had happened to
him then. He thought of it in terms of having been offered six Gifts
and turned down five of them.
* * * * *
Back in the "strange weeks" and armed with the five rejected Gifts
(Page-at-a-Glance and Mind Reading were the only ones that counted,
though), he could easily have said, "Live forever by all means!
Increase your knowledge and understanding until your mind bursts or is
transfigured. Plunge forever into the unending variety of the Cosmos.
Open yourself to everything."
But now, equipped to travel only as a snail....
Still, even snails get somewhere. With forever to work with, even
four-words-at-a-glance gets you through many, many books. Patient
love and dispassionate thought give you human insight in the end, can
finally open the tightest shutter on the darkest human heart.
But that would take so very long and Ernie felt tired. Not old, just
tired, tired. Best simply to watch the soft clouds--the pear-shaped
gateway had become almost circular. To do anything but drift through
life, a stereotype among stereotypes, was simply ... too ... much ...
work....
At that very moment, as if his thought had summoned the experience
into being, another scene filmed over the blue sky and white clouds
above him. The sudden humming in his ears--a kind of "audible
silence"--informed him that his second sight was at work, warning him
of some deadly danger. But this was a more gentle instance of it,
for not all his consciousness jumped somewhere else. All through the
experience, he was still aware of himself leaning against the grassy
hummock, of the restful melancholy of the scene around him, and of the
sky overhead. The second scene only superimposed itself on the first.
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