Byron, George Gordon Byron, Baron, 1788-1824 -- Last years; Poets, English -- 19th century -- Biography
'I am certain that Lady Byron's first idea is, what is due to herself;
I mean that it is the undeviating rule of her conduct. I wish she had
thought a little more of what is due to others. Now, my besetting sin
is a want of that self-respect which she has in _excess_; and that
want has produced much unhappiness to us both. But though I accuse
Lady Byron of an excess of self-respect, I must in candour admit, that
if any person ever had an excuse for an extraordinary portion of it,
she has; as in all her thoughts, words, and deeds, she is the most
decorous woman that ever existed, and must appear a perfect and
refined gentlewoman even to her _femme-de-chambre_. This extraordinary
degree of self-command in Lady Byron produced an opposite effect on
me. When I have broken out, on slight provocations, into one of my
ungovernable fits of rage, her calmness piqued, and seemed to reproach
me; it gave her an air of superiority, that vexed and increased my
wrath. I am now older and wiser, and should know how to appreciate her
conduct as it deserved, as I look on self-command as a positive
virtue, though it is one I have not the courage to adopt.'
In speaking of his sister, shortly before his departure for Greece, Byron
maintained that he owed the little good which he could boast, to her
influence over his wayward nature. He regretted that he had not known her
earlier, as it might have influenced his destiny.
'To me she was, in the hour of need, as a tower of strength. Her
affection was my last rallying point, and is now the only bright spot
that the horizon of England offers to my view.' 'Augusta,' said Byron,
'knew all my weaknesses, but she had love enough to bear with them.
She has given me such good advice, and yet, finding me incapable of
following it, loved and pitied me the more, because I was erring.
This is true affection, and, above all, true Christian feeling.'
But we should not be writing about Byron and his foibles eighty-four years
after his death, if he had not been wholly different to other men in his
views of life. Shortly after his marriage, for no sufficient, or at least
for no apparent reason, Byron chose to immolate himself, and took a sort
of Tarpeian leap, passing the remainder of his existence in bemoaning his
bruises, and reviling the spectators who were not responsible for his
fall. One of the main results of this conduct was his separation from his
child, for whom he seems to have felt the deepest affection. We find him,
at the close of his life, constantly speaking of Ada, 'sole daughter of
his heart and house,' and prophesying the advent of a love whose
consolations he could never feel.
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