France -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"Look here Lirat ... she is mocking you. Don't you understand it? One
day she said to me: 'I shall revenge myself on Lirat for his contempt,
for his arrogant harshness! And that will be a farce!' She is having
that revenge now. You are going into her house, aren't you ... and
tomorrow, tonight, this very minute, perhaps, she will chase you out
in disgrace! Yes, that is what she is after, I can swear! Ah! Now I
understand it all! She has pursued you! Foolish as she is, infinitely
inferior to you as she is, she has known how to turn your head. She has
a genius for evil, and you are chaste in body and mind! She has poured
poison into your veins. But you are strong! You can't do this after all
that has taken place between us ... or else you are a depraved man, a
dirty pig, you whom I admire! You are a dirty pig! Come now!"
Lirat suddenly wriggled out of my hold, and, pushing me away with his
two clenched fists:
"Well, yes!" he shouted, "I am a dirty pig! Leave me alone!"
A dull noise was heard which resounded in the air like a thunderbolt.
It was the door shut after Lirat. The houses, the sky, the lights of
the street were in a whirl. And I no longer saw anything. I stretched
out my arms in front of me and fell on the sidewalk. Then in the midst
of peaceful cornfields I saw a road, a white road upon which a man,
seemingly tired, was walking. The man never stopped looking at the
beautiful corn which ripened in the sun, and at the broad meadows
where flocks of gamboling sheep grazed, their snouts buried in the
grass. Apple-trees stretched out to him their branches weighted down
with the purple fruit, and the springs purled at the bottom of their
moss-covered recesses in the ground. He seated himself upon the bank of
a river covered at this spot with little fragrant flowers, and listened
rapturously to the music of nature.... From everywhere voices which
rose up from the earth, voices which came down from heaven, soft voices
were murmuring: "Come to me all ye who suffer, all ye who have sinned.
We are the comforters who will restore to wretched people their repose
of life and their peace of conscience. Come to us all ye who wish to
live!" And the man with arms uplifted to heaven prayed: "Yes, I wish to
live! What must I do in order not to suffer? What must I do in order
not to sin?" The trees shook their crowns, the corn field moved its sea
of stubble, a buzzing arose from every grass blade, the flowers swayed
their little corollas on top of their stems, and from all this a unique
voice was heard: "Love us!" said the voice. The man resumed his walk,
birds were fluttering all around him.
The next day I bought a suit of working clothes.
"And so Monsieur is going away!" asked the errand boy of the premises
to whom I had just given my old clothes.
"Yes, my friend!"
"And where is Monsieur going?"
"I don't know."
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