“An hour later, while absorbed in some of my infernal studies, I heard,
or thought I heard, my signal answered. Flinging down my books I sprang
to the wall and as steadily as my beating heart would permit gave three
slow taps upon it. This time the response was distinct, unmistakable:
one, two, three—an exact repetition of my signal. That was all I could
elicit, but it was enough—too much.
“The next evening, and for many evenings afterward, that folly went on, I
always having ‘the last word.’ During the whole period I was deliriously
happy, but with the perversity of my nature I persevered in my resolution
not to see her. Then, as I should have expected, I got no further
answers. ‘She is disgusted,’ I said to myself, ‘with what she thinks my
timidity in making no more definite advances’; and I resolved to seek her
and make her acquaintance and—what? I did not know, nor do I now know,
what might have come of it. I know only that I passed days and days
trying to meet her, and all in vain; she was invisible as well as
inaudible. I haunted the streets where we had met, but she did not come.
From my window I watched the garden in front of her house, but she passed
neither in nor out. I fell into the deepest dejection, believing that
she had gone away, yet took no steps to resolve my doubt by inquiry of my
landlady, to whom, indeed, I had taken an unconquerable aversion from her
having once spoken of the girl with less of reverence than I thought
befitting.
“There came a fateful night. Worn out with emotion, irresolution and
despondency, I had retired early and fallen into such sleep as was still
possible to me. In the middle of the night something—some malign power
bent upon the wrecking of my peace forever—caused me to open my eyes and
sit up, wide awake and listening intently for I knew not what. Then I
thought I heard a faint tapping on the wall—the mere ghost of the
familiar signal. In a few moments it was repeated: one, two, three—no
louder than before, but addressing a sense alert and strained to receive
it. I was about to reply when the Adversary of Peace again intervened in
my affairs with a rascally suggestion of retaliation. She had long and
cruelly ignored me; now I would ignore her. Incredible fatuity—may God
forgive it! All the rest of the night I lay awake, fortifying my
obstinacy with shameless justifications and—listening.
“Late the next morning, as I was leaving the house, I met my landlady,
entering.
“‘Good morning, Mr. Dampier,’ she said. ‘Have you heard the news?’
“I replied in words that I had heard no news; in manner, that I did not
care to hear any. The manner escaped her observation.
“‘About the sick young lady next door,’ she babbled on. ‘What! you did
not know? Why, she has been ill for weeks. And now—’
“I almost sprang upon her. ‘And now,’ I cried, ‘now what?’
“‘She is dead.’
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