"Mr. Sault and I are old acquaintances," she said. She did not look
at him. "I have to explain why I came at all. I know that you are
not particularly enthusiastic about stray visitors--nobody is. But
my father was talking about you at lunch today. He has never seen
you, but Mr. Sault has spoken about you and, of course, he does know
your mother. And father said: 'Why don't you go along and see her,
Beryl?' I said, 'She would probably be very annoyed--but I'll take
her that new long wordy novel that is so popular. I'm sure she'll
hate it as much as I."
"If it is 'Let the World Go', I'm certain I shall," said Christina
promptly, "but I'd love to read it. Let us sneer together." Beryl
laughed and produced the book.
It seemed an appropriate moment for Ambrose to retire and he went out
of the room quietly; he thought that neither of the girls saw him go,
but he was mistaken. Christina Colebrook was sensitive to his every
movement, and Beryl had really come to the house to see him.
On her way home she tried to arraign herself before the bar of
intelligence, but it was not until she was alone in her room that
night that she set forth the stark facts of her folly. She loved
Ronald Morelle, loved him with an intensity which frightened her;
loved him, although he was, according to all standards by which men
are judged, despicable. He was a coward, a liar, a slave to his
baser appetites. She had no doubt in her mind, when she faced the
truth, that the stories which had been told of him were true. The
East girl--the pretty parlormaid who had begun an action against him.
And yet there was something infinitely pathetic about Ronald Morelle,
something that made her heart go out to him. Or was that a case of
self-deception too? Was it not the beautiful animal she loved, the
sleek, lithe tiger--alive and vital and remorseless? To all that was
brain and spirit in her, he was loathsome. There were periods when
she hated him and was bitterly contemptuous of herself. And in these
periods came the soft voice of Ambrose Sault, whispering,
insinuating. That was lunacy, too. He was old enough to be her
father; was an illiterate workman, an ex-convict, a murderer; when
her father had told her he had killed a man she was neither shocked
nor surprised. She had guessed, from his brief reference to New
Caledonia, that he had lived on that island under duress. He must
have been convicted of some great crime; she could not imagine him in
any mean or petty rôle. A coarse-handed workman, shabby of
attire--it was madness to dream and dream of him as she did. And
dreams, so Freud had said, were the expressions of wishes
unfulfilled. What did she wish? She was prepared to answer the
question frankly if any answer could be framed. But she had no
ultimate wish. Her dreams of Ambrose Sault were unfinishable. Their
ends ran into unfathomable darkness.
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