England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories, English
The girl Pansy turned the handle of the separator, and its whining
drone mixed with the thoughts and feelings, poignant yet formless, of
one who had little say in her own career. There was an ache in her
loins, for hay harvest was ever a hard week; and an ache in her heart,
because she had no leisure, like Molly Winch and other girls, who could
find time for the piano and to make their dresses. She touched her
hard frieze skirt. She was sick of the ugly thing. And she hastened
the separator. She had to feed the calves and set the supper before
she could change into her Sunday frock and go to evening church--her
one weekly festivity. Ned Bowden! Her fancy soared to the monstrous
extravagance of herself and Ned walking across the fields to church
together, singing out of one hymn-book; Ned who had given her a look
when he passed just now as if he realised at last that she had been
thinking of him for weeks. A dusky flush crept up in her pale cheeks.
A girl must think of somebody--she wasn’t old Mother Bowden, with her
hands on her lap all day, in sunlight or fire-shine, content just to
be warm! And she turned the handle with a sort of frenzy. Would the
milk never finish running through? Ned never saw her in her frock--her
frock sprigged with cornflowers; he went off too early to his courting,
Sunday evenings. In this old skirt she looked so thick and muddy. And
her arms---- Gazing despairingly at arms browned and roughened her
fancy took another monstrous flight. She saw herself and Molly Winch
side by side ungarbed. Ah! She would make two of that Molly Winch! The
thought at once pained and pleased her. It was genteel to be thin and
elegant; and yet--instinct told her--strength and firmness of flesh
had been desirable before ever gentility existed. She let the handle
go, and, lifting the pail of ‘waste,’ hurried down with it to the dark
byre, whence the young calves were thrusting their red muzzles. She
pushed them back in turn--greedy little things--smacking their wet
noses, scolding them. Ugh! How mucky it was in there--they ought to
give that byre a good clean up! Banging down the empty pail, she ran to
set out supper on the long deal table. In the last of the sunlight old
Mother Bowden’s bright eyes seemed to watch her inhumanly. She would
never be done in time--never be done in time!
The beef, the cider, the cheese, the bread, the pickles--what else?
Lettuce! Yes, and it wasn’t washed, and Bowden loved his lettuce.
But she couldn’t wait--she couldn’t! Perhaps he’d forget it--if she
put some cream out! From the cool, dark dairy, down the little stone
passage, she fetched the remains of the scalded cream.
“Watch the cat, Missis Bowden!” And she ran up the wriggling narrow
stairs.
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