England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘I hate croquet,’ cried Cara, indignantly. ‘I never did such a thing in
my life; besides, it is winter, and I could not play croquet if I liked
it ever so much.’
‘What does it matter about details? I use the word croquet as a
symbol--or my mother requires my attendance upon her somewhere. Then the
rest of the world turn round and call me idle! Self-denial is a
disagreeable quality, Cara. Let us avoid it. At the best it is only
extracting merit out of necessity, for nobody denies himself except when
he’s obliged to do so.’
‘Sybarite!’ said Mrs. Meredith, shaking her head at her son; and then
she turned to talk to Mr. Beresford, and the four young people were left
to themselves.
‘Sit down, Roger,’ said Cara; ‘why should you stand up there as if you
were defying the world. You are all quite wrong. It is not self-denial
to do what you are forced to do. When you give up anything of your own
free will because it is right, then perhaps----’
‘Only perhaps, Cara? Don’t take away the little satisfaction one has in
doing a thing that is disagreeable. Look here,’ said Edward, suddenly
seating himself in the vacant place by her which Roger had neglected to
take, ‘going to India is very disagreeable to me. I think I could do
just as well at home. My feeling is all against it; I might, perhaps,
make more money there, but money is not everything. There is no
necessity that I can see, one way or another--but my mother wishes
it--that is to say, my mother thinks my father would like it----’
Roger looked quickly at Mrs. Meredith. Is there a father? he said to
himself, with a mental whistle of astonishment, to which he dared not
give audible utterance. ‘Whew!’ and the astute young man immediately
leaped to the conviction that here was something unquestionably wrong.
‘I thought--it was Oswald--whom Mr. Meredith wanted----’
Oswald laughed. ‘Have you not found out, Cara, that Oswald is an
individual?’ he said. ‘If Ned likes to be knocked about the world
according to other people’s fancies, that is his affair. I don’t. Yes,
it was Oswald that was wanted; but I never was a man for competitive
examinations, my ideas don’t run in that channel, so I dropped my mantle
upon my brother. Oh, he will have compensation; he will be a Member of
Council while I am only a briefless barrister. He will move princes
about like chessmen while I have no influence with anyone but a stray
editor. Ned will be the great man of the family--what, you don’t approve
of me! You would rather Ned stayed at home than I?’
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