England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
And would this be the fault of Agnes, who had shut herself up in the
House, and thus precluded all possibility of being chosen as the
guardian and companion of Cara? She smiled a little to herself, not
without a touch of bitterness; though, indeed, after all, if help to
one’s neighbour is the chief thing to be considered in life, it was as
worthy a work to take care of Cara as to teach the orphans their A B C.
This news of Roger’s, however, introduced, he did not well know how, a
discord in the talk. He fell musing upon the risk to which his little
lady was exposed, and she got distracted with other thoughts. She sat
beside him, in her plain, long black gown, every ornament of her
girlhood put away from her; her hands, which had been very pretty white
hands, loosely clasped on the table before her, and showing some signs
of injury. It is only in romances that the hands of women engaged in
various household labours retain their beauty all the same. Agnes had
now a little of everything thrown in her way to do, and was required not
to be squeamish about the uses she put these pretty hands to; and it
could not be denied that they were a little less pretty already. She
looked down upon them in her sudden rush of thought and perceived this.
What did it matter to the young handmaid of the poor whether or not her
hands were as pretty as usual? but yet, with an instantaneous
comparison, her mind rushed to Cara, who had no necessity to soil her
pretty fingers, and to the contrast which might be made between them.
What did it matter that it was wicked and wrong of Agnes, self-devoted
and aspiring to be God’s servant, to feel like this? The wave of nature
was too strong for her, and carried her away.
‘Well, I must be going,’ said Roger, with a sigh. ‘I am glad that I have
seen you, and found you--comfortable. There does not seem much here to
tempt anyone; but still if you like it--I am coming back next Sunday.
Aunt Mary is pleased to have me, and they don’t seem to care at home
whether one goes or stays. I shall probably look in at the Square. Shall
I tell Cara about you? She knows you have gone away from home, but not
where you are. She might come to see you.’
‘I don’t want any visitors,’ said Agnes, with a little irritation of
feeling, which, with all the rest of her misdeeds, was laid up in her
mind to be repented of. ‘We have no time for them, for one thing; and
half-measures are of little use. If I do not mean to give myself
altogether to my work, I had better not have come at all. Do not mention
my name to Cara. I don’t want to see anyone here.’
‘Well, I suppose you are right,’ said Roger. ‘If one does go in for this
sort of thing, it is best to do it thoroughly. What is that fearful
little cracked kettle of a bell? You that used to be so particular, and
disliked the row of the children, and the loud talking, and the bad
music, how can you put up with all this? You must be changed somehow
since you came here.’
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