England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘I ought to be changed,’ said Agnes, with a pang in her heart. Alas, how
little changed she was! how the sharp little bell wore her nerves out,
and the rustle of the children preparing for chapel, and the clanging of
all the doors! She went with Roger to the gate, which had to be
unlocked, to his suppressed derision.
‘Have you to be locked in?’ the irreverent youth said. ‘Do they think
you would all run away if you had the chance?’
Agnes took no notice of this unkind question. She herself, when she
first arrived, had been a little appalled by the big mediæval key,
emblem, apparently, of a very tremendous separation from the world; and
she would not acknowledge that it meant no more than any innocent latch.
When Roger was gone she had to hasten upstairs to get her poke-bonnet,
and rush down again to take her place among her orphans for the evening
service in the chapel, which the House took pleasure in calling
Evensong. She knelt down among the rustling, restless children, while
the cracked bell jangled, and a funny little procession of priests and
choristers came from the vestry door. They were all the most excellent
people in the world, and worthy of reverence in their way; but no
procession of theatrical _supers_ was ever more quaintly comic than that
which solemnly marched half-way round the homely little chapel of the
House, chanting a hymn very much out of tune, and ending in the best of
curates--a good man, worthy of any crowning, civic or sacred, who loved
the poor, and whom the poor loved, but who loved the ceremonial of these
comic-solemn processions almost more than the poor. With a simple,
complaisant sense of what he was doing for the Church, this good man
paced slowly past the kneeling figure of the young teacher, motionless
in her black drapery, with her head bent down upon her hands. No
mediæval Pope in full certainty of conducting the most impressive
ceremonial in the world could have been more sincerely convinced of the
solemnising effect of his progress, or more simply impressed by its
spiritual grandeur; and no mediæval nun, in passionate penitence over a
broken vow, could have been more utterly bowed down and prostrate than
poor Agnes Burchell, guilty of having been beguiled by the pleasant
voice and pleasant looks of Oswald Meredith into the dawn of innocent
interest in that mundane person: she, who had so short time since
offered herself to God’s service--she, who had made up her mind that to
live an ideal life of high duty and self-sacrifice was better than the
poor thing which vulgar minds called happiness. The cracked bell
tinkled, and the rude choristers chanted, and all the restless children
rustled about her, distracting her nerves and her attention. All this
outside of devotion, she said to herself, and a heart distracted with
vulgar vanities within! Was this the ideal to which she had vowed
herself--the dream of a higher life? The children pulled at her black
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