England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Then there was a pause. To come down to the level of other people--to
confess that their intercourse must be so restricted--was not that of
itself a confession that the intercourse was dangerous, impossible, even
wrong? ‘Other people!’ Mr. Beresford repeated, in a low tone of
melancholy mockery, with a resenting smile. If it had come to that,
indeed!--and then he stood with his head bent down, holding his hands to
the fire. She was silent, too: what could they say to each other? So
many times they had sat in this room in tranquil companionship,
sometimes talking, sometimes silent, no bond of politeness upon them to
do one thing or the other, understanding each other. And now all at once
this comradeship, this brotherhood (are all these nouns of alliance
masculine?) had to be dropped, and these two friends become as other
people. Not a word was said now--that was the tolling of the dead bell.
‘I think I shall go away,’ he said, after a pause. ‘Life has not so much
in it now-a-days, that it can have the best half rent off, and yet go on
all the same. I think I shall go away ‘Where will you go to?’ she asked
softly.
‘What do I care?’ he said, and then there was another long pause.
All this time, on the other side of the wail, by the fire which
corresponded like one twin to another with this, Edward was reading to
Cara and Miss Cherry. There is no time in his life in which a young man
is so utterly domestic, so content with the little circle of the
fireside, as when he is in love. All the amusements and excitements of
life were as nothing to Edward in comparison with the limited patch of
light in which Miss Cherry and her niece did their needlework. He was
very unhappy, poor young fellow; but how sweet it was to be so unhappy!
He thought of all that Oswald was relinquishing, with a sense of
semi-contempt for Oswald. Nothing would he have done against his
brother’s interests, however his own were involved: but he could not
help the rising sense that in this case at least it was he who was
worthy rather than his brother. And it was a never-ceasing wonder to him
that Cara took it so placidly. Oswald went to her in the morning and
held long conversations with her, but in the evening he pursued his
ordinary course, and in the present disorganised state of the two houses
all the mutual dinners and evening meetings being made an end of, they
scarcely saw each other except in the morning. This, however, the girl
seemed to accept as the natural course of affairs. She was not gay, for
it was not Cara’s habit to be gay; but she went seriously about her
little world, and smiled upon Edward with absolute composure as if
Oswald had no existence. It was a thing which Edward could not
understand. He sat at the other side of the table and read to her,
whatever she chose to place before him, as long as she chose. He was
never weary; but he did not derive much intellectual advantage from what
he read. While he was giving forth someone else’s sentiments, his own
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