England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
standing at the door of the House waiting for admittance, to see him
pass taking off his hat reverentially, and looking at her with eyes half
reproachful and tender, than it would have been had he accepted the
repulse she had given him, and put force upon himself and stayed
absolutely away. He had no intention of staying away. He meant to
continue his pursuit of her--to waylay her, to lose no possibility of
getting near her. He was pertinacious, obstinate, determined, even
though it annoyed her. Did it annoy her? or was there some secret
pleasure in the warm glow that came over her at sight of him? She
hurried in, and swore to herself not to think of this troublesome
interruption of her quiet life any more. It was over. Emmy was removed,
and there was an end of it. She would think of it no more; and with this
determination Agnes hastened to the girls in St. Cecilia, and never left
off thinking of it till weariness and youth together, making light of
all those simple thorns in her pillow, plunged her into softest sleep.
Oswald went to Cara to unburden his mind next day. He did not quite know
what his next step was to be. ‘I think it is all right,’ he said. ‘You
should have seen the look she gave me. She would not have given me a
look like that if she had not liked me. It set me wondering whether she
was as happy as--such a creature as she is ought to be. Would they scold
her badly because I followed her? You know what women do--would they be
hard upon her? But why? If I insisted upon being there it was not her
fault.’
‘They would say it was her fault. They would say that if she had refused
to speak to you you would not have come back.’
‘But I should. I am not so easily discouraged. Oh, yes, perhaps if she
had looked as if she hated me; but, then,’ said Oswald, with
complacence, ‘she did not do that.’
‘Don’t be so vain,’ said Cara, provoked. ‘Oh, I _hate_ you when you look
vain. It makes you look silly too. If she saw you with that imbecile
look on your face she would never take the trouble of thinking of you
again.’
‘Oh, wouldn’t she?’ said Oswald, looking more vain than ever. ‘Because
you are insensible, that is not to say that other people are. Of course
I should pull up if I did not mean anything. But I do mean a great deal.
I never saw anyone like her. I told you she was like a Perugino--and you
should hear her talk. She is thrown away there, Cara. I am sure she
never was meant to be shut up in such a place, teaching a set of little
wretches. I told her so. I told her a wife was better than a Sister.’
‘Are you so very sure of that?’ cried Cara; for what she called the
imbecile look of vanity on Oswald’s handsome face had irritated her.
‘Would it be so very noble to be your wife, Oswald? Now tell me. You
would like her to look up to you, and think you very grand and clever.
You would read your poetry to her. You would like her to order you a
very nice dinner----’
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