England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘Oh, I do not require to be sent home!’ Agnes said, with a sudden flush
of fright. To go home was far from being what she desired. Indeed, she
did not quite like to leave the House and the girls’ procession even for
one day. The pale little girl who was her companion was excited and
noisy with joy; but as she took her seat in a corner of a second-class
carriage Agnes felt less exhilarated than depressed, though there was a
curious jumble of feelings in her mind. The motion was pleasant, the
fresh air--after the languid breezes of London--revived and refreshed
the country-born girl. Ah! green fields still looked just so, the birds
sang as of old, only there was something in the breeze and the sunshine
and the birds which she never had known before--something--which
suggested a want, a void, and yet a hope. She would not say to herself
what that void was, but yet felt that it was strange, looking out from
the window of the carriage, not to see one face which she always saw
when she looked out. Very strange--and yet, when she reminded herself,
so much more strange would it have been had she seen it. It was quite
early when they started; the fresh morning lights, still so soft in
their early brightness, caught the dews lying still here and there in
the corners. The child prattled on for an hour or so, then got tired,
and leaned her head against Agnes, and went to sleep. Agnes was glad. It
saved her from the necessity of answering, and allowed her to plunge
into all the sweet enchantment of dreams. There is a time in most lives
when one’s own thoughts are more entertaining, more absorbing, than the
highest fiction, and when poetry is nothing to the vague glory of musing
which envelopes the young soul like an atmosphere of its own. This was
what Agnes had come to now. She supposed she was thinking, but she was
no more thinking than the pale child, whose soft little sickly cheek
leant up against her shoulder with such confiding ease. The child slept,
being sick and weakly; the girl dreamed, being young, and feeling the
sweetness of life to her very fingertips. There was nobody to disturb
them, nothing but the wind of their rapid going, the rush of motion, the
vision of green fields and trees flitting past, the clouds in the sky
sailing over them. In such circumstances even a dusty railway journey
grows poetical. The black poke bonnet and the conventual cloak did not
make it less so, though, alas! they made those thoughts, when she
suddenly woke up to a consciousness of them, very guilty and dreadful to
Agnes. But for this morning at least, once in a way, she had escaped
from the duties of life, and the soft haze which crept over her seemed
more allowable during this interval in which it was evident she could do
nothing else. She had her duty with her in the shape of the little
invalid by her side, to whom Providence had sent this soothing medicine
of sleep: then was not Agnes free? Something as subduing as sleep
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