Bildungsromans; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Scotland -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
Two more years went by of daily walks and insignificant adventures.
Jenny was five. Alfie and Edie were now stalwart scholars, who rushed
off in the mornings, the former armed, according to the season, with
chestnuts, pegtops or bags of marbles, the latter full of whispers and
giggles, always one of a bunch of other little girls distinguishable
only by dress. About this time Jenny came to the conclusion she did not
want to be a girl any longer. But the bedrock of sexual differences
puzzled her: obviously one vital quality of boyishness was the right to
wear breeches. Jenny took off her petticoats and stalked about the
kitchen.
"You rude thing!" said Ruby, shocked by the exhibition.
"I'm not a rude thing," Jenny declared; "I'm being a boy."
"And wherever is your petticoats?"
"I frowed 'em away," said Jenny. "I'm a boy."
"You're rude little girl."
"I'm not a girl. I won't be a girl. I want to be a boy." Jenny darted
for the street, encountering by the gate the outraged blushes of Edie
and her bunch of secretive companions.
"Did you ever?" said the ripest. "Look at Edie's sister."
Boys opposite began to "holler." Alfie appeared bent double in an effort
to secure a blood ally. He lost at once the marble and the respect of
his schoolfellows. His confusion was terrible. His sister skirtless
before the public eye! Young Jenny making him look like a fool!
"Go on in, you little devil," he shouted. He ground his teeth.
"Go on in!"
Ruby was by this time in pursuit of the rebel. Mrs. Raeburn had been
warned and was already at the gate. Alfie, haunted by a thousand mocking
eyes, fled to his room and wept tears of shame. Edie broke away from her
friends, and stood, breathing very fast, in petrified anticipation.
Jenny was led indoors and up to bed.
"Why can't I be a boy?" she moaned.
"Well, there's a sauce!" said Ruby. "However on earth can you be a boy
when you've been made a girl?"
"But I don't want to be a girl."
"Well, you've got to be, and that's all about it. You'll be fidgeting
for the moon next. Besides, if you go trapesing round half-dressed, the
policeman'll have you."
Jenny had heard of the powers of the policeman for a long time. Those
guardians of order stood for her as sinister, inhuman figures, always
ready to spring on little girls and carry them off to unknown places.
She was never taught to regard them as kindly defenders on whom one
could rely in emergencies, but looked upon them with all the suspicion
of a dog for a uniform. Their large quiescence and their habit of
looming unexpectedly round corners shed a cloud upon the sunniest
moment. They were images of vengeance at whose approach even boys
huddled together, shamefaced.
Mrs. Raeburn came upstairs to interview her discontented daughter.
"Don't you ever do any such thing again. Behaving like a tomboy!"
"Why mayn't I be a boy?"
"Because you're a girl."
"Who said so?"
"God."
"Who's God?"
"That's neither here nor there."
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