Gradually all her thoughts became absorbed in the condition of poor,
neglected and suffering children. Her attendance at the St. John's
mission sewing-school, which was located in the neighborhood of one
of the worst places in the city, brought her in contact with little
children in such a wretched state of ignorance, destitution and vice
that her heart was moved to deepest pity, intensified by the thought
that ever and anon flashed across her mind: “And my baby may become like
one of these!”
Sometimes this thought would drive her almost to madness. Often she
would become so wild in her suspense as to be on the verge of openly
accusing her mother with having knowledge of her baby's existence and
demanding of her its restoration. But she was held back by the fear that
such an accusation would only shut the door of hope for ever. She had
come to believe her mother capable of almost any wickedness. Pressed
to the wall she would never be if there was any way of escape, and to
prevent such at thing there was nothing so desperate that she would not
do it; and so Edith hesitated and feared to take the doubtful issue.
Week after week and month after month now went on without a single,
occurrence that gave to Edith any new light. Mrs. Dinneford wrought with
her accomplice so effectually that she kept her wholly out of the way.
Often, in going and returning from the mission-school, Edith would
linger about the neighborhood where she had once met her mother, hoping
to see her come out of some one of the houses there, for she had got it
into her mind that the woman called Mrs. Gray lived somewhere in this
locality.
One day, in questioning a child who had come to the sewing-school as to
her home and how she lived, the little girl said something about a baby
that her mother said she knew must have been stolen.
“How old is the baby?” asked Edith, hardly able to keep the tremor out
of her voice.
“It's a little thing,” answered the child. “I don't know how old it is;
maybe it's six months old, or maybe it's a year. It can sit upon the
floor.”
“Why does your mother think it has been stolen?”
“Because two bad girls have got it, and they pay a woman to take care of
it. It doesn't belong to them, she knows. Mother says it would be a good
thing if it died.”
“Why does she say that?”
“Oh she always talks that way about babies--says she's glad when they
die.”
“Is it a boy or a girl?”
“It's a boy baby,” answered the child.
“Does the woman take good care of it?”
“Oh dear, no! She lets it sit on the floor 'most all the time, and it
cries so that I often go up and nurse it. The woman lives in the room
over ours.”
“Where do you live?”
“In Grubb's court.”
“Will you show me the way there after school is over?”
The child looked up into Edith's face with an expression of surprise and
doubt. Edith repeated her question.
“I guess you'd better not go,” was answered, in a voice that meant all
the words expressed.
“Why not?”
“It isn't a good place.”
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