Catharine particularly objected to her aunt at Ely. She was a maiden
lady and elder sister to Mrs. Furze. She had a small annuity, had turned
herself into a most faithful churchwoman, and went to live at Ely because
it was cheap and a cathedral city. Every day, morning and afternoon, was
Aunt Matilda to be seen at the cathedral services, and frequently she was
the only attendant, save the choir and officials.
"Why do you want me out of the way?" said Catharine, dismissing without
the least notice the alleged pretext.
"I have told you, my dear."
"I cannot go to Ely. If you wish me to go anywhere, I will go to Mrs.
Bellamy's."
"My dear, that is not a sufficient change for you. Ely is a different
climate, and I cannot consent to quartering you on a stranger for so
long."
"Mrs. Bellamy will not object. Will the new house be like the old one?"
"Well, really, may dear, nothing at present is quite determined; no doubt
your father will take the opportunity of making a few improvements."
"My bedroom, I hope, will be what it was before, and in the same place."
"Oh, I--I trust there will be no serious alteration, except what--what
will be agreeable to us all, but your father is so much bothered now;
perhaps you will have a room which is a little larger, but I really do
not know. I cannot say anything: how can you _expect_ me to say anything
just at present, my dear child?"
Again there was the same contradiction. Mrs. Furze knew this was wrong,
but she believed it was right. There was, however, a slight balance in
favour of what she knew against what she believed, and she hastened to
appease her conscience by a mental promise that, as soon as possible, she
would tell Catharine that, upon full consideration, they had determined,
&c., &c. That would put everything straight morally. Had Catharine put
her question yesterday--so Mrs. Furze argued--the answer now given would
have been perfectly right. She was doing nothing more than giving a
reply which was a trifle in arrear of the facts, and, if she rectified it
at the earliest date, the impropriety would be nothing. It is sometimes
thought that it is those who habitually speak the truth who are most
easily deceived. It is not quite so. If the deceivers are not entirely
deceived, they profess acquiescence, and perpetual acquiescence induces
half-deception. It is, perhaps, more correct to say that the word
deception has no particular meaning for them, and implies a standard
which is altogether inapplicable. There is a tacit agreement through all
society to say things which nobody believes, and that being the
constitution under which we live, it is absurd to talk of truth or
falsity in the strict sense of the terms. A thing is true when it is in
accordance with the system and on a level with it, and false when it is
below it. Every now and then at rarest intervals a creature is
introduced to us who speaks the veritable reality and wakes in us the
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