He was right so far, that it is possible by just a touch to convert the
noblest sentiment into commonplace. No more than a touch is necessary.
The parabolic mirror will reflect the star to a perfect focus. The
elliptical mirror, varying from the parabola by less than the breadth of
a hair, throws an image which is useless. But Mr. Cardew was far more
wrong than he was right. He did not take into account that what his wife
said and what she felt might not be the same; that persons, who have no
great command over language, are obliged to make one word do duty for a
dozen, and that, if his wife was defective at one point, there were in
her whole regions of unexplored excellence, of faculties never
encouraged, and an affection to which he offered no response. He had not
learned the art of being happy with her: he did not know that happiness
is an art: he rather did everything he could do to make the relationship
intolerable. He demanded payment in coin stamped from his own mint, and
if bullion and jewels had been poured before him he would have taken no
heed of them.
She said nothing. She never answered him when he was angry with her. It
was growing dark as they went home, and the tears came into her eyes and
the ball rose in her throat, and her lips quivered. She went back--does
a woman ever forget them?--to the hours of passionate protestation before
marriage, to the walks together when he caught up her poor phrases and
refined them, and helped her to see herself, and tried also to learn what
few things she had to teach. It was all the worse because she still
loved him so dearly, and felt that behind the veil was the same face, but
she could not tear the veil away. Perhaps, as they grew older, matters
might become worse, and they might have to travel together estranged down
the long, weary path to death. Death! She did not desire to leave him,
but she would have lain down in peace to die that moment if he could be
made to see her afterwards as she knew she was--at least in her love for
him. But then she thought what suffering the remembrance of herself
would cost him, and she wished to live. He felt that she moved her hand
to her pocket, and he knew why it went there. He pitied her, but he
pitied himself more, and though her tears wrought on him sufficiently to
prevent any further cruelty, he did not repent.
CHAPTER VIII
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