Catharine knew nothing of what had passed between husband and wife--one
scene amongst many--and consequently could not understand the peculiar
earnestness, somewhat unusual with her, with which Mrs. Cardew dwelt upon
this subject. We lead our lives apart in close company, with private
hopes and fears unknown to anybody but ourselves, and when we go abroad
we often appear inexplicable and absurd, simply because our friends have
not the proper key.
"Do you think, Catharine--you know that, though I am older than you and
married, I feel we are friends." Here Mrs. Cardew took Catharine's hand
in hers. "Do you think I could learn how to talk? What I mean is, could
I be taught how to say what is appropriate? I _do_ feel something when
Mr. Cardew reads Milton to me. It is only the words I want--words such
as you have."
"Oh, Mrs. Cardew!"--Catharine came closer to her, and Mrs. Cardew's arm
crept round her waist--"I tell you again I have not so many words as you
suppose. I believe, though, that if people take pains they can find
them."
"Couldn't you help me?"
"I? Oh, no! Mr. Cardew could. I never heard anybody express himself as
he does."
"Mr. Cardew is a minister, and perhaps I should find it easier with you.
Suppose I bring the 'Paradise Lost' out into the garden when we next
meet, and I will read, and you shall help me to comment on it."
Catharine's heart went out towards her, and it was agreed that "Paradise
Lost" should be brought, and that Mrs. Cardew would endeavour to make
herself "articulate" thereon. The party broke up, and Catharine's
reflections were not of the simplest order. Rather let us say her
emotions, for her heart was busier than her head. Mrs. Cardew had deeply
touched her. She never could stand unmoved the eyes of her dog when the
poor beast came and laid her nose on her lap and looked up at her, and
nobody could have persuaded her of the truth of Mr. Cardew's doctrine
that the reason why a dog can only bark is that his thoughts are nothing
but barks. Mrs. Cardew's appeal, therefore, was of a kind to stir her
sympathy; but--had she not heard that Mr. Cardew had observed and praised
her? It was nothing--ridiculously nothing; it was his duty to praise and
blame the pupils at the Limes; he had complimented Miss Toogood on her
Bible history the other day, and on her satisfactory account of the
scheme of redemption. He had done it publicly, and he had pointed out
the failings of the other pupils, she, Catharine herself, being included.
He had reminded her that she had not taken into account the one vital
point, that as we are the Almighty Maker's creatures, His absolutely, we
have no ground of complaint against Him in whatever way He may be pleased
to make us. Nevertheless, just those two or three words Mrs. Cardew
reported were like yeast, and her whole brain was in a ferment.
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