Bildungsromans; English fiction -- 20th century; Women musicians -- Fiction
He played the same fugue over again, and she was lost in admiration of
his supreme technical facility. Obviously this was Bach as he should be
played, Bach as he was meant to be played, every note mathematically
in place and in time; every arpeggio like a row of stones in one
triumphant mosaic. She was not fond of Bach, and in her deepest self
she knew that she disliked him for precisely the reason that Verreker
liked him: he was so totally devoid of sentimentality. Yet she could
not but admire the stern purposefulness of his style: the lofty grace
of his structures, that serene beauty of which, because it is purely
æsthetic, one never tires.
When he had finished she said: “I want you to play some Debussy.”
At first he seemed disinclined to accede to her request, but after a
few seconds’ pause he started a slow sarabande movement. She listened
enraptured till the end.
“Isn’t that sentiment?” she asked.
“No,” he replied curtly.
“Then what is it?”
He ground his teeth savagely.
“Passion,” he snapped.
“And what,” she asked softly--her voice was trembling--“is the
difference between sentiment and passion?”
He looked at her searchingly.
“Don’t you know?”
“I may do--I’m not certain.”
“Well, if you do know, you don’t need me to tell you, and if you
_don’t_ know, I can’t tell you.”
At a quarter past nine they went downstairs. Catherine was leaving by
the 9.30 train to Liverpool Street. They left by taxi to the station.
Fortunately the train was late, or they would have missed it. In the
alcove formed by two adjacent open carriage doors Catherine and he
stood and talked till the guard whistled for the departure of the train.
Their farewell was curious. She was leaning out of the window so that
her head was above his. He sprang on to the foot-board as the train
was moving and seized her hand. She wondered what he was going to do.
She thought perhaps he might be going to kiss her. She waited for
what seemed hours and then he suddenly vanished into the gloom of the
station platform. Almost simultaneously she heard a porter’s raucous
voice crying out: “Clear away there! What d’yer think yer doin’----”
The rest trailed into inarticulate sound. Obviously he had been pulled
down.
The whole incident was somewhat undignified.
Yet all the way to Liverpool Street she was speculating on what he had
been about to do when the porter pulled him away.
And she was happier than she had ever been in her life.
§ 9
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