Bildungsromans; English fiction -- 20th century; Women musicians -- Fiction
“How like a man not to know where anything is!” she commented lightly,
removing her hat. “Never mind, I’ll soon find out. And you’ll be saved
the trouble of going to Mason’s.”
She discovered it was absurdly easy to treat him like a baby.
She found crockery and food without much difficulty, and while she was
making tea he followed her about from room to room, chatting quite
genially. His surliness seemed to vanish entirely: he became charmingly
urbane. Evidently her method of treatment bad been completely
successful. The tension of the atmosphere had been very much lowered,
and he seemed quite schoolboyish in his amateur assistance at what he
called “indoor picnicking.” As she emerged from cupboards carrying cups
and plates and fancy cakes he looked at her very much as if she were a
species of conjurer.
They behaved just like a couple of jolly companions as they sat round
the fire and had tea.
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Afterwards he became less conversational.
“Leave the things,” he commanded. “Mrs. Tebbutt will see to them when
she gets back.”
“All right,” she agreed. “Now we’re going for a walk, eh?”
“I’ve got heaps of work----” he began.
“Not on Christmas Day,” she urged.
“Oh, that makes no difference.”
“Besides, you said you weren’t going to do any more work, in any case.”
“No--but--I thought of dropping in at the Trants.”
Impossible to describe the fierce stab of jealousy that passed through
her. It changed her mood completely.
“Mr. Verreker,” she said, with emotion, “after a fortnight of not
seeing me, can’t you spare me one evening?”
“Of course if you’ve anything particular to say to me--any help you
want--of course--I----”
“Not that! That’s not the point. Mayn’t I never come to you except when
I’ve something definite I want to ask you for? Aren’t we friends?”
“Certainly.”
“Then why can’t you come out with me when I ask you to?”
“Oh yes, I will, but----”
“You’re the only friend I have. Don’t you know that?”
“I’m sorry to hear it. I am bound to say it is to some extent your own
fault that you have not more.”
They were standing in front of the fire. At this last remark she moved
till her face was a few inches from his. Her eyes were flashing with
anger, yet dim with tears like a mirror breathed upon: her hands were
clenched and quivering as if she were thinking to strike him. All her
body, every limb and muscle of her, was vibrant with passion.
“Mr. Verreker,” she cried, “why do you keep saying things that hurt
me? Am I nothing to you at all? Don’t you care one tiny scrap for
what I feel? Oh, I know I’m very imperfect--I daresay I’m all wrong,
to your way of thinking, but have you ever lifted a finger to make me
different? Have you ever cared whether I was different or not?”
“I have helped you always as much as I have been able,” he replied,
with dignity.
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