Cecil Castlemaine's Gage, Lady Marabout's Troubles, and Other StoriesOuida
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Cecil Castlemaine's Gage, Lady Marabout's Troubles, and Other Stories
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Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"What need to tell you more. Florelle de l'Heris was dying, and I had
killed her. The child that I had loved so selfishly had loved me with
all the concentrated tenderness of her isolated and impassioned nature;
the letter I wrote bidding her farewell had given her her death-blow.
They told me that from the day she received that letter everything lost
its interest for her. She would sit for hours looking down the road to
Luz, as though watching wearily for one who never came, or kneeling
before the pictures I had left as before some altar, praying to Heaven
to take care of me, and bless me, and let her see me once again before
she died. Consumption had killed her mother in her youth; during the
chill winter at the Nid de l'Aigle the hereditary disease settled upon
her. When I found her she was dying fast. All the medical aid, all the
alleviations, luxuries, resources, that money could procure, to ward off
the death I would have given twenty years of my life to avert, I
lavished on her, but they were useless; for my consolation they told me
that, used a few months earlier, they would have saved her! She lingered
three weeks, fading away like a flower gathered before its fullest
bloom. Each day was torture to me. I knew enough of the disease to know
from the first there was no hope for her or me. Those long terrible
night-hours, when she lay with her head upon my shoulder, and her little
hot thin hands in mine, while I listened, uncertain whether every breath
was not the last, or whether life was not already fled! By God! I cannot
think of them!
One of those long summer nights Florelle died; happy with me, loving and
forgiving me to the last; speaking to the last of that reunion in which
_she_, in her innocent faith, believed and hoped, according to the
promise of her creed!--died with her hands clasped round my neck, and
her eyes looking up to mine, till the last ray of light was quenched in
them--died while the morning dawn rose in the east and cast a golden
radiance on her face, the herald of a day to which she never awoke!"
* * * * *
There was a dead silence between us; the Arno splashed against the wall
below, murmuring its eternal song beneath its bridge, while the dark
heavy clouds drifted over the sky with a sullen roll of thunder. He lay
back in his chair, the deep shadow of the balcony pillar hiding his face
from me, and his voice quivered painfully as he spoke the last words of
his story. He was silent for many minutes, and so was I, regretting that
my careless question had unfolded a page out of his life's history
written in characters so painful to him. Such skeletons dwell in the
hearts of most; hands need be tender that disentomb them and drag out to
daylight ashes so mournful and so grievous, guarded so tenaciously,
hidden so jealously. Each of us is tender over his own, but who does not
think his brother's fit subject for jest, for gibe, for mocking dance
of death?
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