Cecil Castlemaine's Gage, Lady Marabout's Troubles, and Other StoriesOuida
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Cecil Castlemaine's Gage, Lady Marabout's Troubles, and Other Stories
Ouida
Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Gaston de Launay took her hands off the balustrade, and held them tight
in his, while his voice sounded, even in his own ears, strangely calm,
yet strangely harsh:
"Madame, you love me no longer?"
"Monsieur, I do not answer questions put to me in such a manner."
She would have drawn her hands away, but he held them in a fierce grasp
till her rings cut his skin, as they had done once before.
"No trifling! Answer--yes or no!"
"Well! 'no,' then, monsieur. Since you _will_ have the truth, do not
blame me if you find it uncomplimentary and unacceptable."
He let go her hands and reeled back, staggered, as if struck by a shot.
"Mon Dieu! it is true--you love me no longer! And you tell it me
_thus_!"
Madame la Marquise, for an instant, was silenced and touched; for the
words were uttered with the faint cry of a man in agony, and she saw,
even by the dim twilight of dawn, how livid his lips turned, how ashy
gray grew the hue of his face. But she smiled, playing with Osmin's new
collar of pearls and coral.
"Tell it you 'thus'? I would not have told it you 'thus,' monsieur, if
you had been content with a hint, and had not evinced so strong a desire
for candor undisguised; but if people will not comprehend a delicate
suggestion, they must be wounded by plainer truths--it is their own
fault. Did you think I was like a little shepherdess in a pastoral, to
play the childish game of constancy without variations? Had you
presumption enough to fancy you could amuse me for ever----"
He stopped her, his voice broken and hoarse, as he gasped for breath.
"Silence! Woman, have you no mercy? For you--for such as you--I have
flung away heaven, steeped myself in sin, lost my church, my peace, my
all--forfeited all right to the reverence of my fellows, all hope for
the smile of my God! For you--for such as you--I have become a traitor,
a hypocrite, an apostate, whose prayers are insults, whose professions
are lies, whose oaths are perjury! At your smile, I have flung away
eternity; for your kiss, I have risked my life here, my life hereafter;
for your love, I held no price too vast to pay; weighed with it, honor,
faith, heaven, all seemed valueless--all were forgotten! You lured me
from tranquil calm, you broke in on the days of peace which but for you
were unbroken still, you haunted my prayers, you placed yourself between
Heaven and me, you planned to conquer my anchorite's pride, you wagered
you would lure me from my priestly vows, and yet you have so little
mercy, that when your bet is won, when your amusement grows stale, when
the victory grows valueless, you can turn on me with words like these
without one self-reproach?"
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